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2008-06-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

I've shifted to http://siewying.wordpress.com thanks to angie for introducing wordpress to me...now i can set password to my post instead of changing my website url...so if you wan the password ask me...if i wan you to know wads going on with my life i'll give u...if not than i'm sorry..

2008-06-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

had 2 overseas trip within a month...thailand for the long one with my aunt and a short one to JB with the uni-peers...bought loads and loads of stuff from thailand till i was dead broke as in literally dead broke with 0 baht left at the bangkok airport..luckily there was no need to pay airport tax or else i'm dead...went to JB with the gang ytd...had a fun time playing daytona...bowling..etc...and most impt FOOD!!!!...yahx...thanks kiat lee for bringing us to the nice and yummy food...though is jus a border away..the food is so much cheaper and yummier..is a pity angie couldnt make it but i'm sure the next time we go..she's definately comming along...anyway toking bout that she should be flying back from thailand tml...and i'm sure she had a wonderful time...i miss my best fren...i got so many thing to tell her...anyway enough of the happy stuff...i wont say i'll go on with the sad stuff but eversince i declared that i have attraction for him...but his action sometimes make me confused and sad...think i'll write it in a separate post..cus i know if i dun write it out i will feel very suffocating..

Customize Your Settings

2008-06-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

is so weird...i'm actually learning a game for a guy...i tot after u i'll not fall for anyone..guess i'm wrong...i still get over u even though when peeps ask i always tell them is over but i guess i'm jus lying..i jus told someone whom i noe less than a month bout us..i dunno why i told him..but i jus did..forgetting u is a really hard thing to do...u are the one who made me feel like theres nothing i need to worry and u are also the one who made me feel i was in hell..perhaps i'll jus never walk away from your shadow..finally i met someone who might jus lead me out of u..but i'm afraid..i'm afraid that i'll be hurt and i'm afraid that i am jus thinking too much on my own...i dunno why but u will be in my mind everytime..until i met the new 'him' i guess i'll jus be walking in not my shadow but yours..

2008-05-14T19:45:00.001-07:00

is been some time since i last blog...thats because i've been studying really hard for my exams...finally 3 papers are down...but the bad thing is i'm left with 2 theory paper which is harder than econs...or rather thats how i feel..I'm glad i started my econs early which gave me ample preparation for the exam but i sort of neglected the rest of the subject...anyway throughout the months during studies...i managed to know more frens in UOL...they are very friendly people and i'm glad that i'm expanding my circle of frens...we decided to organise a bbq but with all bbq pits fully booked...therefore we decided to change to a 2D1N chalet...it will be at east coast park...seems like time really flies...in months i'll be turning 21 which means a new chapter of my life will be starting..wad i really want in my life i still have doubt about it...i wan to work in a financial industry , be it bank or investment company..but i still have the dream of being a full time PA for a while...well dream be dreams in the next 2 years i must really think wad i wan to do...whenever i told my frens that i wanna continue doing my masters after my degree...they always reply that they are not sure if they can even pass the degree smoothly which make me think if i'm aspiring abit to far...another thing...relationship...my fren once told me that majority of his frens are either going to be married or in stable relationship and he's only 24...it makes me kind of wonder wad will happen to me by then...will i still be single or will i be with someone..

Things to accomplish after exam

chalet cum bbq with the UOL peeps...
extensive revision for driving
driving test
Thailand
China
more baking

2008-04-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder is there any pure platonic frenship between guys and girls? When a girl tend to be close to the guy...it will always be seen as something more...i simply cant understand..a close fren once told me that i'm someone that have lots of guy friends as compared to girl friends..though i agree totally with him...i wonder is it a good or bad thing...we tend to say that guys mature later that girls...i used to think that way too...but i tot i was wrong when i meet C...tot that someone who is younger than me by 3 years and yet have a mindset/thinking like me or rather someone of the age of 19...but then after the a few msges...u tend to get the idea that he's thinking a bit too much...i mean is guys thinking too much?

2008-03-25T23:34:00.000-07:00

today is my farewell lunch with SM...oh man as i type i have so many emotions running throughout me...we had lunch at Honjjin japanese restaurant...food is nice...haha...i was the chair lady..sort off...but i dun like being the centre of attraction so i was kinda akward shifting up and down of my seat...they were all very nice and helpful to me thruout the 1 year in SGX...after lunch they ask me to give a thankyou speech...at that moment i was like stun...haha...i realise i havent prepared my thank you speech...neither did i know how to pluck words from the air... so i basically was very shy and keep declining say that i never prepare and i dunno wad to say...eventhough i wanted to say thank you to all of them very much...i simply cant do public speaking jus like that or rather i have yet the guts to do that...plus i'm afraid that i will be emotional that eyes , face all turn red...with tears running down..this is so far my best company with great boss and colleagues..if i could turn back time , i'll definately accept and re-contract...and maybe minusing all the dumb mistakes i met thru the journey...anyway...in short i'm gonna miss everybody there.....

THANK YOU , SERVICES MANAGEMENT

2008-03-17T23:19:00.000-07:00

Few more days to go before i solely concentrate on my studies...is a good thing that i finally take a break..a bad thing is i'm gonna miss my colleagues...today i went for my first farewell lunch..thanks sue nee and suhaw...heE...had a nice lunch though is jus a coffee shop but still is the thought that count....thursday going for another from HP...though they are our outsourcing partner...they are very nice to me...oh man...i sure miss the time i spend in SGX...haha...time really flies...i've been working for 1 year...thats the longest i've stayed in a part time job...as the rest i quit because of school..well one thing for sure i noe...studying and working is really not easy...so for those who have a choice not working while studying...please don't...half the time you will have not enough sleep..

2008-02-28T00:39:00.000-08:00

I'm sitting in front of my desktop in office dreaming away...as you can suggest i'm in a complete ORD mood...yahx...very bad but i dont care...muahaha..these few days very tired cus have been studying very very late...after recent mock exam i realise i know NOTHING....practically NOTHING...got to start everything from scratch...OMG...even a passing rate of 34% is so difficult to attain...so i'm gonna mug a whole year syllabus in 2.5 months time...this is really bad...i guess studying and working really isn't easy...I cant wait to go home and sleep cus i'm really very very tired...my eyes are closing as i type...is there anywhere where we can study 24h other than MAC and home...Mac is a nice place but the irritating thing is the advertisement will repeat constantly...which ends up remembering the ads instead of notes...Going to a fren's birthday chalet...haha...well...it will be more of a drop by cus i got other programmes...

After exam i'll be looking forward to a long list of things...

Driving Test (after a long long time)
Thailand Trip
Hong Kong Trip (not confirm)
New Part Time Job

The only thing i'm not gonna look forward is my RESULT...haha...unless i've confidence in passing otherwise NO i'm not looking forward...Soon it'll be my last day in SGX...there's mixed feeling...in one hand i'm happy that i'm gonna finally take a break and rest...on the other hand i'll miss the people there as they are very nice to me...definately a place i wanna remember....my main focus will be

STUDY...STUDY....STUDY!!!!!

2007-12-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

have u ever get a colleague that u can never get along? well i got this colleague that i try my very best to get along but i just really really can't get long...everytime i try talking to her...i always get snub at...is f**cking fustrating..and is certainly not motivating me to go to work...state an example...today went for a colleague's wedding dinner..when she knows that i'm staying so close to her place...she didnt even ask if i wan ride back not that i need her ride home..but it was so akward cus majority of them noes that i stay the nearest to her place...she straight away ask the new guy who is staying far frm her place..and my first few months was really horrible and was so akward...she ask everybody for lunch and left me out...and is like so obvious...i mean if u wan to leave me out please do it discreetly it seriously hurt ppl's feeling..And she's freaking tempremental..sometimes she can be SOOOO nice sometime she is really a F**KING BITCH..i think if i leave the company...she is someone i do not wan to remember..and everytime i try to ask her something nicely...she give you that wad the fuck face..i mean is it necessary...we are all out here working..especially when she has a picky tastebud and when ask her for preference she say anything but that during the dinner...she critisize the food like it was my fault that i chose something not her liking...i seriously cannot tahan her...HELP!!!!!!!!...she is the nightmare of my JOB!!!!...arhx!!!!

2007-10-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

i've been contemplating with myself whether anot to write this blog...i wan to tell someone bout this but i dunno who to tell and i need to express myself so here i am...have you ever be with someone for a long time and unknowingly thinking of him/her anytime and finding him/her 'shine' when he/she ard many ppl?yahx i've been thinking of someone for the past few months...not mentioning dreaming of that someone...and everytime during a conversation with my frens..that someone's name jus seem to appear every now and then...and when we have a gathering with that someone and frens...i'll be noticing that someone and not the others...but the prob is that someone is married...so is morally wrong to think of someone that is already 'taken'...that is also why i cannot tell anybody...that someone's look jus never leaves my head..and is making me losing focus on everything...i know it sounds crazy but it really happening...well that is a short and straight-forward confession...

2007-10-15T17:53:00.000-07:00

its 8.54am...they shld be in the plane in mid air on their way to JAPAN!!!...yeap..today's the day...woke up at 5.30...went to the airport with them and send them off...i dunno why but i'm starting to miss them already...i actually weep abit on my way to work from the airport...i've been having negative thinkings in my mind and is making me go mad...i cant imagine my life without them...*SHIT get those thinkings out of me...i'll be counting down to the day they come back...dunno why but something seems missing...i feel empty..the house will not be the same till they come back...

2007-09-13T19:10:00.000-07:00

I'm bored bored bored...yes i do mean bored....i'm chatting with ms kx...and i realise she's right...i'm always bored on friday...i jus had a minor dental surgery yesterday...something to do with filing my bone...haha...it sounds scary...haha...lucky i wasnt shown the whole process...if not i'll faint on the spot and they can save on the anestatic on me...haha...anyway currently i'm experiencing aching pain on my left cheek...but lucky the painkillers really work...I'm going to brewerks later with my colleagues and the problem is....I cant drink alcohol...thanks to yesterday's surgery...well i guess i got to stick to fruit juice for today..haha..well...today wasnt a good day...it starts off with the cab driver trying to cheat my money...going slow and taking wrong turns...lucky i'm smart enuff...hahahahahaha...next while eating breakfast...my breakfast spilled on my shirt...eWWWW....yahx...got a hard time washing while still wearing it...and to add to it...i'm gonna miss my alcohol...*boohoo

2007-08-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

Suddenly got the urge to write a post...maybe is because of the gloomy weather...feeling kind of low these few days...I did mention that i find my dentist was kind of cute...after i went for yesterday appointment...i didnt even get to see his face for long and i was done...he merely cut the stitches and told me a few stuffs that i have to avoid and do...he made an appointment for my filling and scalling...but when i ask the clinical stuff if i was getting the same doc...she told me that he was a specialist and it will be done by a general dentist...i was kind of dissapointed...well...thats beside the point...anyway i think he's married or got girlfren le...i'll jus keep this feeling to myself...i cant stop emphasize to my brother that he's kind of cute..i dunno why but recently i felt that i was abit of redundant in the company ever since the new ger came in..eventhough is a good thing that my work load is lighten...but is jus that i feel kind of 'useless' in the company...another thing...i miss dancing...i miss relaxing...i miss enjoying life...i guess this is wad we call working life...no choice adding that i still have to pay my dad every month 250 for my savings plan...anyway side-track abit...i cut my hair AGAIN...haha this round is short...chin-length short...suppose to be bob-style but my stylist cut the front too short which made it look like xiao mei mei....haha...well i'll wait for my hair to grow than after that i'll ask him to not cut the front to short...hopefully it will look better...anyway thats about it...chaos~

2007-08-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

DINNER WITH KEXIN haha...is a SOSO belated birthday dinner for my dear kexin...haha...we went to the top of the M restaurant at mandrain hotel along with zach...OMG can i re-emphasize how cute is he...haha...see pics below and you will definately agree with me...with the 50% discount coupon i had...we ate numerous food which we seldom have a chance to eat...haha...i manage to try the goose liver that the french cruisine love to use...and i must say i really dun enjoy that..haha...but the crepe was really good...haha..soaked with alcohol along with the mixture of ice-cream..yum yum...the restaurant is revolving so we took a photo of the scenery when we start the dinner and another scene when we finish the dinner...so enjoy the pics...

THe menu
ZACH...isnt he so adorable
Escargoe(dunno how to spell) in layman terms...snail
MS Kexin with her lobster bisque
ME with my white mushroom with truffles

The mummy and the boy

OUR MAIN DISH *TADAH....yummy

ME and the boy....

the boy is so engrossed with the song the live band is singing...

OUR Dessert...is really good...

The boy walking along the side of the restaurant

Before view

After view

me with ms kexin
the boy is telling he's TIRED...

Final pic before we head home cus the boy is tired

2007-08-18T07:23:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i last blog..haha...so many events and activities has happen...anyway i continued my job in SGX and i start skool already...skool was okie except for the fact that students there are damn kiasu in study...they always study lke there's a major exam the next day...CRAZY...the syllabus was okie except for ECONS!!!...i dun hate econs is jus that i dun understand some of their topics..maybe this is because i did not have a foundation for econs..but who cares!? i'll find a way out myself...anyway i removed 2 of my wisdom tooth and honestly is not as pain as wad i expected not to include that my dentist is kind of cute and humourous...he made me less nervous throughout the surgery and tell jokes to calm me down...haha...anyway i guess i'll jus upload the pics...afterall pics speaks a thousand words...

June 24
Grandma's birthday

me and the dear boy
me and my aunts

the grandchildren

my table

The whole family

July 5

KBOX with deb / Fel and Angie

with Deb

with fel and deb

August 4

SienWei's birthday party

Guess which is my brother?
The birthday cake

2007-07-22T00:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a fun gathering..met up with yf,char and clovis...met at bugis mrt before heading for dinner at indulgez...haha...the food is not bad...haha...we were having fun teasing each other...haha...it was fun at dinner...haha...we wanted to head off to loof...if thats the right spelling but it was totally pack there...so we decided to try muse bar...the bar in the national museum...haha...luckily it was less crowded than loof...haha...we had a few drinks..than it was fun seeing char and yf snatching over some couch...haha..we were joking and crapping the whole nite...it was nice meeting up after a long time...anyway we had a few drinks before heading home...the guys went off first while me and char stroll to ps...i took a cab home cus i was kind of tired...i actually slept in the cab...haha..but well..the gathering was fun and i really enjoyed it...haha...well got chance we shall meet up for chill out or smthing...haha...anyway really glad to meet up with u peeps...=)

2007-07-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

so long never update le..haha...another week and half i'll be starting my school...another 3 years of studies...but this time i'll be getting a degree not a diploma...haha...my new school will be located jus next to my poly...haha...SIM...studying UOL...haha...some may say that SIM is a lousy school for rejects of local uni...i used to think that way however after 1/2 yr in SGX i've realise that u need not be in LOCAL uni to be successful...i've known few bosses that they studied in SIM too..and i came to realise that even if u are in a 'lousy' skool doesn't mean u are lousier than those in 'prestigeous' school...it all comes down to personal..afterall if A jus graduated with a normal degree from NUS and B graduated with a normal degree from SIM...in the end the degree cert is still the same...unless you graduated with first class honours than YES the school makes a difference...but other than that...it all comes down to individual...

haha...dunno why sound so serious...haha...jus thought of this a few minutes ago...hahah...anyway i've been splurging on branded goods recently...first LV and now burberry blue label...haha...branded goods can be addictive...but they are all so pretty..haha...
anyway soon it'll be my last day in SGX...haha..last time i cant wait for my last day...now i'm kind of attached to the company...If there's a chance i definately would like to work in SGX again...

2007-07-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

so fast is already july 2007...is just like yesterday that i jus started this job...is been 5mths le...though this is a temp job, i've learnt alot here as well as made frens with many of them...now that i'm going to end my contract is kind of sad as i'll be missing them...haha...i'll be missing those time spend with them through incidents, breakfast meeting, iso20k meeting...and all the fun time we had...though sometime work can be stress but which job doesn't have stress? haha...well...enuff of sad stuff...i hope that i would have a chance to work with them again...

anyway yesterday was also a fun day...went kbox-ing with the trio...angie , deb and fel...haha...met angie first at mrt after work before rushing down to lot one to sing...hahah...bought cheesecake for them...hope they like it...we bought many food, from old chang kee - pizzahut - shilin...it was a fun day...i truely enjoyed myself.....they are simply a group of fun and bubbly ppl...haha...

will be uploading pics at a later time...for now is off to work again...haha...been slacking bout 2 hours already...

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2007-06-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

Its been long since i last blog...well have been real busy with my work...anyway there's not much updates in my life too...except that i have an dept welfare dinner...haha...at first thought it will be akward but it turns out pretty good...we had about 950 budget for 9 pax and we headed to one rochester...as request by my boss...haha..is a super high class place...we took a MRT down to buona vista before walking there...i was wearing heels so it was kind of tedious for me but who cares...haha...we ordered many different finger food as well as some main dishes to share...haha..it was really good food there...and not forgetting the ambience there is superb...haha...we opened 2 bottles of red wine as well as each of us drank many different type of liquor..haha...i was requested to drink the 'waterfall' for my last drink...haha..i was super high and we were crapping and teasing each other...it was really a good way of bonding...well..below are some photos of one rochester...

2007-06-17T22:26:00.000-07:00

Graduation has finally arrived...it was the day that I've been looking forward for a long long time...it marks the end of my 3yrs studies as well as the start of my new chapter of my life...went to np ard 7+ with my family for breakfast before proceeding to the reporting hall...i was late so the lecturer was hurrying us to change into our gowns and prep us for the ceremony...a video was shown during the ceremony to depict the 3 yrs of hardwork we have done and it was really touching...when it was nearing my turn to go on stage to get my cert...i was practically trembling...when it was finally over there was a sign of relief...though there was unhappiness during the 3 yrs but all have past and i'll only remember the happiest time of poly..took loads of photos and after that head to a restaurant near bukit timah rd for a sumptous meal...in the afternoon...met up with deb and angie for shopping...which is something that i havent been doing for a long time...bought a dress from F21 and met up with fel before we all left for home...ard 11+ kx called saying that she's at zouk and ask me to go...i'm so tempted that i immediately agree to go...it was super crowded there and was the first time i used my passport for entry...haha...got to know new frens charlene and a few others...they are so fun people to be with...haha...i havent had that much fun a long time...saw a fren that i havent met a long time but kept in contact with...it was nice seeing u there...yf and fren clovis joined us...but they were shy so well nvm...but it was fun in all...took a cab home before falling directly to sleep and having trouble waking up the next day...haha...anyway here are the pics...

2007-06-10T20:59:00.000-07:00

Saturday i had the best and the worst time...well i'll start on the worst time...
went for a bday party ard evening...and met up with people whom i thought that i'll never need to meet up with them.. it was so akward between us not because i'm still angry with her...but because it's been like 6mths since we last spoken and i dunno what to say...but what most akward thing is that she actually told the bday ger wad happen between us...but i mean this is between me and her...and is past so so long ago..is there a need to drag other ppl in? anyway the air there was so diff to breathe in that i called a few frens to talk to while waiting for some closer frens to arrive..anyway left after the cake cutting session and went to meet deb, angie and fel...which leads to the best time that i had for that day...

met them and we went to wala wala for some drinks before poking into our individual lives...haha..it was so much fun...had chicken wings as well as wedges...haha...after that we decided to proceed for a whole spine-chilling experience...fel drove us to some forsaken hse near dempsey road...we didnt get to see the hse but the atmosphere there sure played an impt part of us getting so freaked out...even the slightest sound can make all 4 of us screamming our lungs out...decide that is time to see something more common before heading home..went to see an house that everyone dream of living in...the hse own by a singaporean have his own bronze eagle as well as a fountain..not forgetting his 2 shelthered carpark as well as an underground garage which is filled with cars of brand ferrari, lamborgini etc...and it was noted that he has his own power plant...seriously how rich can someone be?anyway during the whole car ride we were exchanging ghost stories as well as xperience...haha..though is scary...but it was fun...anyway thanks fel for sending me home...was so scared that i pratically plead my bro to come down and wait for me..the best thing is my hse toilet is blackout and i dare not use the toilet...

regarding the QnA that we had at wala..had been thinking wad u guys say...sorry that i did not come truth with u guys about my ex...in fact the last time i saw him was a week ago and not 2 months ago...but 1 thing for sure is we are only frens and nothing more than that..i guess the fact that i refuse to ask him out is bcus i noe he's not a sociable ppl...and that things will be akward eventhough i noe those gers will try their best not to make things akward...but i guess sometimes is good to jus hang out with gers...but i guess when u talk to gers abt crushes and stuffs...u tend to have a clearer view of ur feelings...well...i guess i'll jus follow with the flow...

2007-06-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

I'm suffering from a big big cold...have been sneezing from the moment i woke up...lucky thing is this week my fren could fetch me to work so i won't be late and need not spend money on cab...haha...thanks zhengmin...yesterday met up with yf for dinner..haha...i realise that i have not been contacting anybody for the past 1 month..haha...have been hibanating myself...past month i've been doing nothing but work and sleep...very no life...anyway yesterday was fun did some catching up...he's still the same...from the moment we met he was jacking me wadever i say...haha...walked ard till bout 8+ before settling for dinner at Muthu's curry...wanted to eat soup restaurant...but they ran out of their samsui chicken which equals to not eating pizza at pizzahut...ordered a curry fish head and a plate of cabbage...haha...1/2 way through dinner...kexin came as i got to pass her some stuffs...we were crapping and joking with the waiter and other weird stuff...haha...it was so funny that i was laughing more than eating...haha...we manage to finish the whole fish head...than crapping and crapping till reach home...haha...i miss those days of crapping and crapping...haha...anyway i thought that things will be weird since so long never meet...but well i guess frens will always be frens and conversation will come naturally without akwardness...well tml 1/2 of my group will be leaving for vietnam...and next week i'll be having my graduation ceremony...woohooo....!!!!!...haha...anyway thanks zhengmin for being my chauffer...oOps...haha...

2007-06-03T19:22:00.000-07:00

is 10.30am and i'm still sneezing away...last week was quite a relax week for me...thursday is public holiday and i went to the PC show 2007 at suntec city and it was super crowded and........i bought my camera haha...i bought panasonic lumix FX30...boy am i so happy.... and friday i took 1/2 day thanks to SIM for losing my student contract and asking me to make payment for my course...before i went to SIM i went to the Akira warehouse sales to get a philip music player at 149...haha...after lunch went to Queensway shopping centre with my brother and my cousin...bought my brother a Zinc bag and i bought a pair of black jeans as well as a top that was ultimately condemn by my mum for looking like a pajamas...-__-
Anyway after that went to depot road to eat botak jones western food..the portion was super big big big...and the staff is really friendly...my cousin got a complimentary slice of cake as it was his birthday the next day...after the full full dinner...it was enjoying the music and deep sleep...Saturday i went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean at world's end with my mum and my brothers...it was a super show...omg Jack sparrow is damn cool and damn handsome...i simply love johnny depp...cant wait for them to come out the trilogy DVD..haha...sunday was simply lazing ard at home...oh yahx...i've created a blog for my mum for her to post her artpiece for people to enjoy...if anyone of u are interested in the items...let me know maybe i can psycho my mum to make 1 for u...the blog is @ csn-masterpiece.blogspot.com

2007-05-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

I'm bored...very very very bored...

I suddenly like to listen to sentimental songs..
i think MLTR is a damn good group..
Love their songs
Ate bread for breakfast and lunch...
Getting addicted to tea...
I'm busy downloading song this morning
downloading japanese disney theme
and popeye , animaniacs and pinky and the brain theme
those are really memorable cartoons..
Mediacorp should consider have all these classic cartoon put under repeats...
I'm gonna sell my old camera later after work..
and get a brand new panasonic camera soon..
Omg the thinking of it makes me happy...
I'm so sleepy and hungry...
I got my pay today!!!...
haha...means more more $$$$$$
Angie jus sms say she's shopping
And i'm so tempted to join her...
haix...cannot my boss is in meeting
my desk is very messy
and i cant be bothered :p
i still got 3h before 6pm
i wan go clubbing..
i collected my graduation gown..
it looks weird but still got to wear
next week most staff of SGX will be going to Vietnam
which means will be a quiet friday...
I'm gonna watch Pirates Of The Caribbean 3 on Saturday
and i'm sure i'll enjoy it...

2007-05-28T02:27:00.000-07:00

I'm bored so i'm gonna learn smthing from ms kx...haha...writing a random post...haha...kx dun be angry hor..haha...anyway here goes...

I'm listening to 'would you be there' by redwan ali...
I'm craving for dunkin doghnut...thanks to angie...
I'm eating Mango sago...
I'm missing you...
I still have not retrieve my IC...
I love my family..
I miss the old days...
I have a MOBTV account...haha
I'm really missing you..
I love working in SGX...
I love my grandma...
I'm reminising the past..
Wad would life be if i never met u?
I dun dare to think..
I miss clubbing..
I MISS ALL MY FRENS
I'm putting off my driving...
I 'think' i'll start when i start school..
my hands are freezing..
I hope my parents will be proud of me..
I'm going to meet you for dinner later and i'm looking forward...=)
Thursday is a public holiday...wahaha...means wake up late...
Writing Minutes for meeting is a chore =(
Dont ask me if i'm still in love with u...
Cause i dont know....
and i dun wanna think about it...
I still cant belive how ppl can use their hp till a bill of 800SGD
I'm proud to be part of SGX/TEC/SM/SD
Charles Ling is a good boss and people in SM are SUPER nice...
I'm craving for chocolate and dessert...
I'm thinking of straightening my hair...hmm..shld i?
I'm thinking of u...
I'm going drinking with my colleagues on wednesday...
1 of my colleague is a founder of an orphanage in India and i'm proud of him...
1 more minute to 6 ; which means knocking off..
boo...tml got breakfast meeting means waking up early..
my feet hurts...thanks to a new pair of shoes...
is 6.00pm ; I'm meeting you =)

BYE =)

2007-05-28T00:28:00.001-07:00

well...last week was quite a nice weekend...went for dinner at amara hotel with my family..haha...my treat...once in a while treat them to something nice...hahahaha...i'm such a nice daughter...haha...anyway on friday the entire SGX was having a fire drill exercise...haha...everybody was coming to my floor as is lower and need not climb so may flights of stairs down...anyway we were speculating that the fire drill will be ard 3+ so everybody wasn't working but jus hanging around...then suddenly someone shouted tornado!!!!...haha...everybody went to see and take photo...haha...it was an experience seeing something so rare with my own eyes instead of seeing thru news...haha...took video and pictures...will upload soon as long as i got the time to do it...after that the fire alarm RANG!!!...haha...everybody was taking their own sweet time to evacuate...so much for a realistic fire exercise...haha..walked all the way to prince edward park...took attendence and chit chat abit before heading back to the office...visit my aunt at DBS...i pity her cause she is always so busy regardless during lunch time or rather ANY time...friday was also family day for SGX and everybody is allowed to knock off at 5pm...good rite? they encourage every staff to spend time with their family...and each department has a norminee for best staff...and the winner from SM is...*drumroll.....SUSAN HELEN...haha...she was given $150 dining voucher with curtosy of SGX...haha...so nice right...weekend was kind of boring...jus watch princess hours over again and eat and sleep...haha...omg i feel fat...so much for losing 10 kg and gaining back bit by bit...haha...anyway got to start running...anyway my big expenditure for this month will be a camera...haha...every month's pay i'm spending a portion on a new device...first was PSP than now camera...hmm..wad's next? anyway i'm pending between Panasonic Lumix FX07 and FX30...can anybody tell me which is a better camera and where can i get at a cheaper rate...

FX30

FX07?

2007-05-23T19:36:00.000-07:00

is quite some time since i last blog...was so pissed yesterday...actually thought of having a nice meal with my family as it so long since i last treat them a meal...from high tea we change to dinner buffet at amara hotel...on tuesday my youngest bro was making a big fuss about going keep complaining that he dun wan go...that already turn me off...i was quite pissed off cus is like so difficult for the whole family to go for 1 decent meal..and wats more i'm paying not them...than the day itself i already dun have the drive to enjoy but still reserve the table at amara hotel but ard 6pm my dad call me that my youngest brother is having a fever..i was like so?! cancel lahx.!!! the prob is i already expect something like this to happen..which is wad turn me off...i cant be bothered already i'll jus work and sleep and back to skool in early august..

2007-05-20T20:15:00.000-07:00

I'm kind of bored in office today so i decided to write a review about the movie i watched during the weekend...hee...here goes...

Born into Brothels.
This is a documentory movie and it is featured in the red light district of Culcutta (India)...The director/photographer Zana Briski lived in one of the brothels and befriended the children of the women...She taught them photography and get to know the life that they are going through. She realise that most of them wanted education as well as a different life..for the girls their mothers /auties will force them into prostitution and some of them were so timid that they do not know how to say no...these children are black listed in the country such that getting them a passport or even getting a place in school is difficult..Zana taught them photography and manage to get them a place in school...she went through numerous problems and fustration over the disagreement of their parents..but manage to get most of them into a school...as for how many of them really carve out a future..that is for you to find out...Go catch the movie...is available only at GV Vivo...

Some pics from the movie...

2007-05-17T22:55:00.000-07:00

I dunno why but recently i'm very restless...cant seem to put my mind to do something...anyway aside from that...i'm beginning to like my colleagues from my dept...not that i dun like them previously...but previously i was feeling akward with everybody not really opening up to them...and everything seems so weird..when they go for teabreak last time..i'll be the only one left out in the dept and is weird seeing my dept going out except me...but now they ask me along and i start opening up to them..i can even joke about stuff with them and i start to understand their work and the whole processes in SGX...my dept is known as the central pillar of SGX..and i'm really proud of it...when incidents happen u can see everyone trying to solve the problem as fast as possible and there are so many followup to do after it is beign solved...

2007-05-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

Havent been updating as this week was kind of a busy day for me...jus took over my colleague's job and was ask to help a colleague who is pregnant...is forms and forms and forms AND MORE forms..Initially wasn't getting used to it as previous month i'm SUPER free...suddenly i got so much work load...but now i'm getting used to it...These few days i've been a very good girl to my mum...always going home for dinner...last time i used to go home for dinner only like twice a week...yeahx...quite sad...i dunno but my fren's death taught me to really appreciate my family and treasure my life..life is really so fragile...i made a promise that i will no longer binge on alcohol anymore...hmm...i got a feeling i'll not be able to keep to that promise...haha...

anyway went to wala wala at holland V alone...yeap u didnt see wrongly...alone...ytd was kind of emo and that i needed to relax and to sort my thinking...did try to ask a few frens along but it was kind of last minute...so well expect that they cant make it...was actually thinking whether i shld continue to go ultimately it was kind of weird to go drinking in a pub alone somemore i'm a ger...but after thinking i decide to go ahead...i went kind of early about 10+ jus before the crowd starts...went to 2nd level where the live band was...i ordered a glass of whisky coke and was enjoying the live band...the music i good...is not like wad u hear in clubs...one thing...walawala has alot of caucasians...one of this guy came and talk to me guess he was curious to know why am i alone...haha...his name was David....from newzealand...he was nice to talk to...well come on he was alone and i was alone so yahx..we became frens..he was alone cus he was waiting for his other frens to arrive...he treated me to a glass of lychee martini...soon his frens arrive at first i tot i'll be left alone...but instead he ask me to join them...haha...had much fun...soon i was forgetting all the problems that i was suppose to sort out...around 2am i decide to leave as i was kind of tired...he accompany me to get a cab home before joining his frens again..haha...it was really a fun day for me yesterday..from a suppose lonely nite...i get to noe more frens...

anyway side track abit...i'm kind of disliking the way u are behaving...especially that day...i noe me and my fren are the minority in the group and we are trying to mix well with the grp..but while ur other frens are also trying to mix well with us...u jus choose to treat us like transparent...i mean why do that when we are all frens...i kind of think that i was wrong about u...last time i'm always looking forward to meeting you as i tot u are someone whom i can talk anything under the sun..and jus be myself..but recently i'm feeling that u seems like a stranger to me...is sad that good frens can result to this stage...call it woman's instinct...but i can feel that u are avoiding me...and for wad i have really no clue...i guess thats the difference btween singaporean and foreigners....i dunno why but singaporean dun believe in platonic frenship...they always have to see things with a motive...

anyway something slightly happier...my graduation is coming and i'm gonna to take leave next wednesday to replace my IC and bring my bros for lunch buffet at sakura...than maybe go shopping alone...now i'm thinking where to have dinner on father's day..haha...since my dad loves porriage(dunno how to spell) maybe i bring him to some porriage buffet...anyway my grandma is returning from Vietnam this sunday...*praying hard for the flight journey to be safe...can't wait to eat her cooking...best hakka food in the world...

2007-05-13T18:12:00.000-07:00

Life is so short and so many things happen jus within months...Someone that i know jus died on mother's day...Is so sudden as in the afternoon i jus visited him and after dinner..i was told that he has left us...My fren's accident was reported in news...in case u still not know which case is it...u can refer to this link http://www.straitstimes.com/portal/site/STI/menuitem.c2aef3d65baca16abb31f610a06310a0/?vgnextoid=6fadbe120b93a010VgnVCM1000000a35010aRCRD&vgnextfmt=vgnartid:cdc47fa260682110VgnVCM100000430a0a0aRCRD

I know him through red cross and though he was really fierce those days..he was really nice to all cadets when it comes to recreation..he was a well respected SIR afterall...after the course ended we have gatherings and without fail he will turn up...Though he is gone, we will still be the respected SIR in our heart...

2007-05-09T18:21:00.000-07:00

i'm posting cus i'm super bored and akward now...my entire dept went for a meeting except me...than my boss say so loud that i need not attend the meeting...so malu and akward can?!...seriously i dun mind not attending the meeting...i alreeady got myself into some office politics...the point is not i look for the politics but they come look for me...if marcus was here...i'm sure he also will be called into the meeting...arhx...cant be bothered with them...i realise that this few weeks isn't a smooth ride...shit stuff are happening almost once every single day..waiting for this dark patch to pass...shoo!...

yesterday was quite turn off by everything...since i was the organiser for a gathering...i went to the restaurant to discuss some details with the boss and manage to get their function room which includes karaoke system...the staff there is very nice =)...it was kind of tedious to go and find a place so unfamiliar after work in high heels...but to me if i wan do smthing...i'll make sure i do my best =)...think i'm being more perfectionist as time goes by...i sms the details to my frens and 1 of them say dun wan go BCUS? not into jap food...i was kind of turn off cus even if u dun really like jap food cant you turn up for the sake of a gathering?is hard for me to please everybody..and if u didnt really like the most u can is let me noe earlier and than i can make arrangement...but the thing is during the weekend and u only inform me ytd...and everybody else is confirm..i really dunno wad to do..bcus of this i troubled my other fren and the least u all could do is jus coorporate...? i also dun care...i'll jus enjoy with whoever is going to turn up...
The restaurant i'll be going is Himawari Japanese Restaurant...for the ala-carte buffet...gonna blog about the food..the thought of the food makes me drool..haha...

yesterday was my colleague's last day of work...he's going back to study...he's one of those that i really talk to in the office as the some of them still seem very unapproachable...i'm actually quite envious of him to have such a good bonding with the other colleagues...is jus no matter how i try to bond...there's always a gap between me and them...this dun actually make my working life enjoyable...it actually makes me look forward to last day of work..

Oh yahx...i promise ms KX that i'll blog bout my transition from brown hair to black hair and i havent did that...haha...i'll blog tonight as all the pics are in my laptop...i'm still getting use with black hair...

2007-05-08T20:32:00.000-07:00

random post...have been repeating this song in my ipod everyday...the song is what goes around comes around by justin timberlake...dunno why last time i dun really like this song...but this few days...i'm simply loving the song...

"What Goes Around... / ...Comes Around Interlude"

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?

You know I gave you the world

You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away

I just can't seem to understand

Thought it was me and you babe

Me and you until the end

But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it

Don't want to talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed

You said that you were moving on now

And maybe I should do the same

Funny thing about that is

I was ready to give you my name

Thought it was me and you, babe

And now, it's all just a shame

And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it

Don't want to talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around

Yeah

What goes around comes around

You should know that

What goes around comes around

Yeah

What goes around comes around

You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)

Don't want to talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it (yeah)

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone

And he never comes home

And every time you call him

All you get's a busy toneI heard you found out

That he's doing to you

What you did to me

Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl

My heart bleeded girl

So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt

Just a classic case

A scenario

Tale as old as time

Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody

To cure the lonely nights

You wish you had somebody

That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy

You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

(What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

(What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

(What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]

See?

You should've listened to me, baby

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Because

(What goes around comes back around)

[laughs]

2007-05-08T00:58:00.001-07:00

dunno why but today was quite busy than other days..the whole morning was meeting and meeting...haha...i sound impt but i'm not...jus sit there and capture minutes only...lunch went to mich mum's cafe have a full lunch and take away muffins for my colleagues...proceed to Amara hotel with Yun Zhen to pay the deposit for the luncheon that my company is organising...i jus treated them to the muffins...haha...well i making an effort to bond with them...haha...afterall they treat me very nice for the past 3 mths...anyway i see them eat i also hungry...haha...

well yesterday was talking to kx and i realise that i said alot of rubbish when i was drunk that day..and to kx...I STILL CANT BELIEVE I SAID THAT...OMG....well i'll avoid the topic as far as possible...haha...i'm so daring when i'm drunk...omg...haha...I'm so shock of my own words...i guess when ppl get drunk u tend to say things that you will not dare when u are sober...

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NEVER BELIEVE IN DRUNKARD WORDS...hahah

2007-05-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

last week was a super bad week...I lost my IC, eZlink and my housekeys...on saturday i went to club cus it was tricia's b'day..as usual i only bring my purse with my IC,EzLink, Credit card and housekeys...met yf first before heading in to the club...than was kind of super akward then cus majority of tricia's fren i have no idea who they are other than wanxiang whom is also from shuqun sec...open a bottle of chivas and started drinking with yf before the rest arrive...only remember bottoms up with tricia and after a while i cant remember anything already...i only remember i started puking and tried locating yf but jus cant seem to get him, reason? i never save his number in my phone and i end up keying the wrong number...i dunno why i ended up looking for yj...i remember i was in the toilet when i gave her the call...than i only remember someone dragging me to MAC...and there is where i realise that i lost my purse..as my credit card and member's card is with yf so that was not missing...other than those, everything is missing...was resting at MAC where i got scolded from yj...i understand why she scolded me for...and till now i have no idea when and why i decide to open the 2nd bottle of chivas...i cant remember anything...yj was right to scold as i always get taken advantage of...they tried helping me to find my purse but MOS said that they have yet to find the purse...after a while kexin and yj left cus i think kexin's fren came and pick her up...than send yj to sengkang..cus the time was about 5+ so yf decide to jus sit and wait for the first train...as for me i was too tired to really move so i jus slept there...i think ard 6+, yf woke me up and we proceed to the MRT station...remember i'm peniless...so yf paid for my one trip ticket and we headed to JE...thru out i was havin very bad stomach ache...it was very unberable but i still got to bear with it...anyway reach je and we proceed home individually...i had $1.40 so it was enuff to take a bus home...went home and called my brother to open the door for me.. as i have no keys...i actually decide not to tell my parents about the lost of the key and IC but after a while of slp i realise that keys and IC are together which means telling anyone where i stay and giving free access...so i decide to come clean with my mum saying that i lost my purse...she was quite cool with it except making a few nagging...i told her i going to make a police report so she was not so angry cus at least i make an effort to do something bout it...after making a police report i went back home...then my dad knoes nothing yet...when he come back from his game my mum told him wad happen and he was furious...he woke me up and scold and scold...when he sees that i never rebut him , he thinks that i dun care about it at all so he starting hitting me...yahx so now i always wear long sleeves shirt to cover the marks...eventhough i should be angry for him beating me but i noe i cant cus is all my fault...i'm feeling so pissed with myself...and i cant do anything about everything...

some words to end it...
yj : ger...really thank you for coming down...wad u scold me is correct and i knoe is for the benefit of me..i really feel bad for making u come down so late..i wouldn't know wad my life will be without a fren like u...anway really thank you for helping me all these time...i dunno how to express my thanks for u...but again really thank you and wouldn't know wad to do without u...

yf : hey fren...really sorry for making u stay back when u are suppose to leave earlier...really sorry for troubling you another time..i dunno how to repay ur favour everytime but only saying thank you...

kx : ger...sorry that i got so drunk that day that u didnt really get to enjoy the whole time...promise not to get too drunk the next time we go...

tri : hey ger....happy birthday again...and sorry to be so drunk throughout the whole time...

2007-05-03T18:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday was fun and tired day..went to catch spiderman3 with my brother and his fren...it was a free tix from my mum's company NUH...yahx...it was from some sponsor call chemotech...went to the cathey to have dinner before collecting the tix...there is practically nothing cheap and good to eat at the cathey...quite sad...after collecting the tix we proceed to the movie...the company was so nice they gave us each a beanie,a can of coke and a box of popcorn for us to enjoy the show...so nice...haha...anyway the show lasted bout 2.5h...and i must say is real good...i dun mind watching it twice or even trice...omg...and one thing spiderman is so damn handsome...oOhx...anyway some screenshots from the movie...took a cab home...cost bout 15 bucks...lucky jiahao[bro fren] stays near by...

2007-05-01T19:34:00.000-07:00

is a brand new month...MAY!!!..which means i got to countdown to another month before my payday...is so sian...so many things happen during the past week...the day after i got drunk on Thursday...i quarrel bad with my parents...which means no good...yahx..so to avoid commotion...i decide to not go home early on friday...so was lingering ard till bout 10+ decided to go home...but my father lock up the latch of my front door...wanted to look for mich's help but no reply came from her...yf was also reply-less...so i jus sit by my swing idling away...thinking about everything...so it was getting late...sat at the bench downstairs as it will be weird when the neighbours sees me getting lock out of the hse...while sitting down minding my own business...a few MAD came talking to me...i ignore them and they started to get all touchy...so i got really scared but i realise i have no one to turn too...so i decided to call zhengmin(my ex)...he was very nice and he drove down to pick me up from my place to his place...i was crying on the way to his place...not bcus that my dad locks me out but realise that i have no one to turn to...zhengmin was very nice he drove me to his place and offered me to stay for the night...we started to drink alcohol again and was getting tipsy...he slept in the living room and i had his room....i only remember that he waited for me to sleep before heading to the living room...the next day when i tot i woke up really early, he was even earlier...he bought breakfast for me...i'll be cold blooded if i say i wasnt touched...i was really touched...we talked about the past before he send me back home...obviously my dad was speechless when he saw zhengmin sending me back...but to zhengmin i was feeling that i owe him a favour...cus anyway we are no longer bf and gf...so he need not do all these for me...thats why i feel debted to him...cus eversince we broke up bout 1 1/2 years ago...he still treat me very nice...and at times i didnt treat him very well...i dunno why but he will always be there when i need help...

things were normal on sat...bought my psp...yeahx finally...used my own hard earned pay to get it...is like half of my pay...but i think is worthwhile..zhengmin offered to pay for me but i refused cus i already debted to him mentally...i dun wan to owe him financially too...and beside is nice paying your own...so yahx..things didnt go that bad for the weekend until....yesterday...my youngest bro was ramaging through my room ytd and found some dvd and decided to play it...those dvds are not porn but are not suitable for kids below 18...as some sexual scenes was involve...so obviously as a young boy he went to tell my mum which ends up to my dad...he was furious when he found out that this type of disc is available in his hse...so he was making a big fuss over it...and eventhough it was bought by my brother...he was in camp so he wasnt involve in the whole commotion...lucky him for me to take up the rap...i have to bluff that those disc are borrowed from a fren...he say that if i dun return the fren by this week, he's gonna throw all away...i was thinking of passing to yj but apparantly she had some concerns that her parents will find out and create a big fuss...afterall her family comprises mainly gers...i dun blame her..so i tot of yf cus afterall i told him about this before...but he was saying that i shld get someone closer to home...so okie...i tried getting someone closer to home...but she cant be contacted...but nevermind i told him that i will figure out a way...which leads to zhengmin again...i tot of him as he has his own apartment and i think is normal for disc like these to appear at a guys place..so again i owe him 1 again...when i ask him if it was convenient he was joking that he would need some entertainment for himself too since he is always alone at home...i told him that he treating me so nice make me guilty and that i feel bad that i'm owe him alot...he told me that i could repay by spending 1 full day with him...well...i havent make a decision if i gonna agree to spend the day with him...anyway i'll jus wait and see how things go...

i'm gonna watch spiderman 3 tml...with my bro and fren...hope it wont be a dissapointment...=)

2007-04-26T18:16:00.000-07:00

here i am writing this post...this is the first time i'm suffering a hangover...is horrible...i cant really remember what happen ytd...i only noe after the drink graveyard...i'm half gone...than i dunno why i start drinking more and more...and ended up drunk...haha..yf is drunk too..i'm not the only one...than i know we took a cab back...the drop me off first..i only remember staggering home...trying to open the gate...wash my face and sleep...zZz...i cant even remember that i sms yf to wake me up at wad time until he called me and i was like wad time is it...i took a cab to work today and my stomach was feeling grudgy...when i woke up i was puking every either liquid or solid food that i eat...and i got a whole load of scolding from my dad...like wth...cant he do it tonight or smthing?i'm so tired now...at least i'm responsible enough to come to work every time after i club...i'm feeling very f**ked up my body is collasping...

2007-04-24T20:23:00.000-07:00

1/2 hour more before is lunch break..woohoo!!!...was 10 mins late for work today...reason? couldn't find anything to wear...sad rite? i change 3 outfits in total before settling for a tunic top...thought of taking taxi but i have been taking taxi for consecutive 2 days...so decided to jus take the MRT...manage to board the train at 8.30am which means i got 1/2 hour to travel from jurong east to raffles place...i did not have my earphone with me so i jus stood there staring at my hp...than i heard music...at first i thought someone's phone has rang so i ignore it..but the music was LOUD and LONG...which is so irritating and the point is the songs played are oldies and are not nice...it was so irritating...so i called angie and was saying loudly that some ppl jus dunno about the invention of earphone and he didn't realise it was so annoying...i think that guy heard wad i said and automatically off his hp...haha...i dun care if u think i'm mean but seriously it is very annoying...i was considering to tell him off face to face...
Counting down 3 days to payday!!!!...yeahx!!

2007-04-22T18:39:00.000-07:00

hmm...last week was kind of fun week..had 2 consecutive party during the weekends...one was the TEC group dinner...and next is clubbing [as usual]....well i'll go into details one by one...

First the TEC group dinner...i've been working with SGX for about 3 months and still counting...i'm working under the TEC dept also known as TECnolegy dept...there was this appreciation dinner for the entire dept...which means about close to 100 ppl...i was only informed on friday itself...eventhough it was abit rush but i went in the end...at first i felt real akward there...i went with my colleague susan sia...took a bus and walk with a group of ppl whom i dont know...yahx..Under TEC there are 3 diff mini-department [Planning and Governance, Services Management and Solution Delivery]...i belong to the dept Services Management lead by Mr Low...but my boss is Charles...so complicated right? anyway back to the dinner...i was sitting opposite susan helen[yeah another susan] and things was abit akward for me...cus i have no idea who are the other 80 ppl who are there...so i sat there quietly sipping my glass of white wine...than they started giving out the appreciation cert..i unfortunately did not have one...since i join not long...but is okie...i understand...anyway the dinner is held at magma the german bistro...is found by my colleague marcus...the food are not bad there and they provide free flow of wine and beer...so do find out more...anyway after a speech by all the leaders of individual dept as well as the head of TEC..is makan time....i waited for a while before i join the queue as it was more of a buffet style...so it was separated into 2 different section..the hot and the cold...the hot section is where the pasta and mash potatoes and stuffs are..the cold section are where the smoked salmon, hams and salads are...i prefer the cold section...haha...i'm amazed with their boiled salmon...they practically skined the salmon so nicely that the shape of the fish is not damaged and you can scrape the meat off with a spoon so easily...and not forgetting is delicious too..yum!...the more i recap the hungrier i get...anyway i was sitting there eating my food quietly as i knoe very little ppl and dunno who to talk too...than marcus and ramesh came and pass me a glass of wine...and came talking to me...haha...they are so nice...but i think they are wanted so they left after a while...i was bored so i went to look for them and crap...saw them and crap abit and drink more glasses of wine...talk with alvin and han kiat too...than when the MCs request for the youngest staff available...i seek shelther as i was the youngest there...haha...as well as marcus and dennis...so we went outside till the volunteers are found...haha..come on you are asking me to sing some songs that i'm not even familar infront of so many strangers? no way...i do not have the gut...haha...so is more drinking and crapping...than the time when everybody are waiting for...the lucky draw...they are very nice cus they prepared like enough gifts so that no one go home empty handed...i got a $50 taka vouchur...haha...i dunno why but seems like everyone is dying to get the grand prize...the ipod shuffle..haha...i was teling myself if i get it i'll sell it to them and earn money...haha...time pass and i realise i drank about 12 glasses of wines...and yeah i was feeling tipsy..but not to the extend that i dunno wad i'm doing...i was talking to yijing while trying to get a cab...and i told her that wad happen last last week...and apparantly she claims that i was talking alot of rubbish...i went home and i fell asleep after bathing...
hmm...some pics of the restaurant...

Okie now to the next party...the very next nite after the company's event and getting all tipsy...i agreed to go MOS with yijing,kiet and tricia...went there about 10+ since tricia wll be there ard 10.30..there was a free entry therefore there is a long long queue...but i need not queue...so i brought yijing in via the member's area..went in have a glass of whisky coke while waiting for tricia...when she arrived she drank a glass of lychee martini before we headed in to the dance floor...the dance floor was so pack but the music was not very good...so we were trying hard to groove with the music...soon kiet arrive and we waited for him...had a jug of yet whisky coke too...before heading back to the dance floor..we were dancing when suddenly tricia say she wanted to go to the ladies...i asked her if she wanted me to accompany her...she say dun wan..so i told her that once she's done can give me a call...but the next thing i know is that she left home...think she felt quite sian...cus the music is not good and the crowd was only so-so..i believe that if someone wants to leave than jus let her/him be...cus no point forcing them to stay when they will end up with no fun...so i told yijing that jus let her leave...so we continued dancing...than this guy[malay] started dancing with me and hands are starting to get closer...so i made eye contact with yijing and kiet and they came to my rescue..is so weird cus normally once they 'save' me the guy will jus leave me alone...but he keep following us till i get abit scared...than at the bar i started talking to this 2 guys...their names are really unique...kenn and ken...so is quite diff to identify them...but anyway told them that if they wan they can join us for a dance...haha...than i left my number with one of the guys...kenn..we continued dancing till my legs also very pain...as well as yijing so we decided to go home...but i did not go home i join my other fren at her place with some other frens...we drank quite a bit and was quite tipsy...so i msg yf saying that i need to talk to somebody to keep me sober while i'm on my way home..but i got no reply from him..before i sms him..i called mich and she did not answer...yijing herself was already drunk when we left MOS...so i slept in the cab till the cab driver got to wake me up to ask me which way to go...when i went home i was msging kenn and apparantly he tot that we were trying to hit on them...haha...i told him we were jus being friendly and that we are not interested in them as a 'bf' but more as a fren...haha...after chatting awhile i fell asleep in the living room and got a hell of shouting from my parents the very next day...=(
anyway here are some pics...

2007-04-22T18:17:00.000-07:00

Is the first day of the week and i'm feeling so restless...i guess this is call the monday blues...i'm so sleepy...and is not even 1/2 of the day yet...anyway my N73 has been declared dead...boohoo...cant even on the phone...those peeps thinking of getting a N73...please seriously consider...cus is a phone than is slow and hangs alot...haix...after work got to send my phone to hospital...sad...i'm not sad about the phone but the contacts and the msg that are store in the phone...now i have to use one of the establish '3G' phone...haix...
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2007-04-17T19:03:00.000-07:00

Is wednesday of the week and we still havent talk to each other...I mean as a fren is polite to reply my msges and stuff...and even if you are pissed with me i would rather u let me know instead of avoiding me..I already apologise to you...what more u wan me to do?...I mean i really dont wan to spoil this frenship but i really dunno wad to do already...

i realise that to all my frens i'm always the one being bothered about how they feel...they don't even care if i feel pissed or wad...i kind of sick of who i am...i realise i got very limited frens to talk to...when i was feeling so troubled i tried finding M , YJ but they are all not available...last time i can count on YF to talk to as a fren...but now we seems to be so distance that i don't even dare to look for him to talk to...If things really turn out really bad i will feel sad that i lost a fren who knows me well...Maybe when it comes to frenship i tend to get very troubled and anxious when i feel that i have angered my frens...i tend to worry alot which i know is not a good thing...but i cant help as frens are 1 of the impt group of ppl in my life...

Enuff of sad stuffs..the good thing is i talk to my dad regarding me wanting to buy a psp...i thought his reply will be a definate NO...but surprising he told me to check out the price let him know and if is still cheaper than the shop we bought our PS2 than he will go down with me to buy and help me bargain...well i'm definately going to buy a psp this month...

Eventhough this is a happy issue i still feeling troubled regarding frens issues...haiz...

2007-04-15T18:29:00.000-07:00

here i am in the office...again very bored..regarding the issue i state in ytd's posting...i'm still feeling f**ked up about it...i have not heard of A since...I'm very scared that our friendship will turn all bad...the last round that i think yijing was pissed off with me...i was feeling bad and guilty the whole week...A's ranking in my friends is as impt as yijing...How i wished time could turn back and things will be better...i dunno what to do now...should i call A and talk to A or shld i jus pretend nothing happen and wait for A to talk to me...i hate the feeling of being guilty...it kind of sux..i think the feeling will only go off when A and me starts talking to each other...oh man...my eyes are so tired due to not lack of sleep but interval of waking up from a long sleep...I wan to tell yijing about it but i can't cus she knows A and it will be even more akward if she go confront A...ARH!!!!...i dunno what to do...

2007-04-15T00:15:00.000-07:00

I feel so awful now...I truely regret my actions...ytd i went to club with A and other frens...were the only ger among them...but i know all of them in school so things were not so akward...dance and drink alot...apparantly me and A are close frens compared to the others...rafter a while of dancing we decide to have a drink...before that A has already drank quite a bit...so after our flamin lamborgini...A was abit tipsy...at the dance floor he was already knocking onto other ppl and i have to apologise to them...i was okie with apologising on A's behalf...so to prevent him from knocking onto others...i tried hold A back whenever he was losing his balance..everytime i hold him back i got pushed by A...I tried letting A know that he has been knocking into ppl but instead i got a scolding by A...i admit i was quite pissed so i change place with 1 of the other frens...than i think the other could not handle too so i changed back...at one point A was about to collaspe so i held on to him..okie..i was abit holding him...i didnt tell anyone but the next thing i know is that he turn and :x on my cheeks...i was stunned..before i can regain my stunness...he pushed me away again..i was feelin very contradicting from the moment we left the club to the nearest MAC...i was pissed at the fact that A keep pushing and scolding me while i'm trying to help him but i can't be angry with A cus i know he is drunk and is not his fault...but i guess anger got the better of me...after a while when A was more sober...he was talking to me but i choose not to reply cus i need time to getover the anger...so i told A straight that i was pissed with him...he was like what did he do...i told him that while helping him, i got pushed and scolded by him..i know he felt bad...so i was like saying...'if i wan to be a bi*ch, i can say smthing till he loses face'...A was like saying 'jus be a bi*ch and say...i wan to know'...so i said wad i saw and his frens were making fun of him...by then i was feeling not that pissed anymore...cus after all we are good frens and i know is not his fault...i was feeling abit tired so i was trying to sleep...A keep using the bottle to disturb me..so i was like trying to hit him...A turn his face to indicate that if i dare i could slap him...i dunno wad came abt but i hit him on his cheek...and was quite a loud one...he didnt say much after that and continued to joke around...but after a while he went back to sleep ...i was thinking about the slap and i feel bad...as in real bad...so i was feelin guilty...i was scolding myself why i did that...i became feeling akward talking to him...so i kept quiet for a while...than i realise that he was also beginning to avoid me...i mean if i was the only one who felt it...maybe i was sensitive...but even his frens were also thinking why suddenly me and him became so distance...we took a mrt from clarke quay...i was walking abit fast cus my legs were starting to ache...and i wan to reach the platform a.s.a.p...went into the train saw a seat and sat there...i never realise that there was not enough seats for all of us...so they say proceed further in...but i was too tired to shift so i told them is okie...they can go ahead...afterall is only 2 stops...by then A was avoiding me very obvious...partly i dare not make the first move...so we were practically not talking...we reached JE for breakfast...wasn't having much appetite so didn't finish up the bread i ordered...i kept quite silent the whole time..partly tired and partly akward...as in not akward with the group but akward with A...i was thinking of apologising to him regarding the slap but i dare not do it...and i dun wan this to affect my friendship with him...cus he is one of my good frens...this is the first time that i hit a fren...i'm feeling all so guilty and bad....i went to bed straight after a bath when i reached home..after i wake up i sent him an apology sms...and not heard from him since...i wan to think that is because he is slping so there is no reply...but whether is that case i seriously dunno...

2007-04-11T20:40:00.000-07:00

50 memorable things for Singaporean teenagers. Sit, enjoy and think back about the past...

1. You grew up watching He-man, Transformers, Silver hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles and Smurfs too.

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug. The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.

3. You know what's Bin(1) Fen(1) Ba (1) San(1)is all about.

4. You know what SBC stands for.

5. You were there when the first chinese serial, the Awakening was shown on TV.

6. Internet? What the hell is that? So you thought a decade or more ago.

7. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

8. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole on the ticket.

9. Your favourite actor and actress is Huang Wenyong and Xiangyun. Next is Lee Nanxing and Zoe Tay and the Aiyoyo woman.

10. You've probably read Young Generation magazine. You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

11. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

12. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

13. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

14. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

15. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka(20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang(50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

16. You watched TV2(also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

17. All that you know about Cantonese is from the Hong Kong serials you watched on TV2.

18. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.

19. Civics and Moral Education was "Hao3 Gong1 Min2".

20. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

21. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THEMOSTEXTREME WAS 'super white'... you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

22. Catching was the IN thing and twist was the magic word.

23. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

24. CDIS was your best friend.

25. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellisedcharacters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

26. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

27. Boys loved to play soccer with small tennis balls in the basketball court.

28. Hopskotch, five stones,chateh and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...

29. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives.

30. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks.
Even Mr Willy.

31. You did stupid exercises like seal crawl and frog jumps.

32. Every children's day and national day you either get pins or pens with'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with Happy National Day 1994'.33. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.

34. Chinese teachers were always old, boring and damn fiercelooking.

35. Your form teacher taught you maths, science and english.

36. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.

37. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained,and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

38. Famous Chinese singers were only Jacky Cheung, Andy Lau, Aaron Kwok and Leon Lai.

39. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

40. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

41. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

42. During class gatherings, parents always tag along in case someone gets lost at Orchard Road.

43. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

44. Handkerchiefs were a must for both genders.

45. Collecting notebooks and all kinds of stationery was a popular thing.

46. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "ForgetMeNot", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".

47. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

48. There were at least 40 people in one class.

49. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.

50. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

really bring back alot of past memories...

2007-04-11T20:28:00.000-07:00

was super late for work today...last round that i saw my alarm was 7.30...so i tot that i could sleep abit longer after all the testing of the discs...yawn*...so by the time my dad woke me up..it was 8.30am!!!!...which means in order not to be late i have to get ready and reach SGX in 1/2 hours time...by the time i dressed up and get ready it was 8.40am already...i took a cab to work...like obviously...but AYE was having slow traffic....which is bad...so by the time i reach my office..is already 9.10am...i'm 10 mins late...okie..not that bad...by the taxi cost me $17...so expensive with all the ERP and the peak hour charges...did nothing much but read some jokes online and browse website...came accross an article regarding 50 memorable things for singaporean teenagers...brings back alot of memories..life back then was so much more naive and simple not like now we are surrounded by technology..everything became so technical...well...i'll post the article in the next post...Apparantly there is an ever going debate regarding the pay rise of our minister...i was never following the political issues...but when my colleagues were discussing about this matter...did i realise that our ministers are the highest paid in the world...even BUSH has a lower pay than them...wOahx...we have a super gold class government...But i have to say that the government did do a good job during crisis like SARS and Birdflu...now i guess the goal of every human being in the world is to be a minister in singapore...because of a super duper good pay...imagine with a year pay...you can retire and rest your remaining years...for other jobs in private sectors...we have to work a LOng LOng way...well..enuff of crapping got to go back to work...after lunch got to meet up with HP's Project manager to discuss some issues for the project...counting down 1/2 hour to LUNCH break...wahaha...

2007-04-10T01:49:00.000-07:00

I'm so bored now...i'm practically stoning and stoning and stoning even more...office is like a place where i jus sit and rot and wait to get pay...surprisingly my flu have gotten better despite not eating any medication...had mixed vegetable rice for lunch today...the food doesn't taste nice...but i dun care...and it cost $4....so expensive...i'm beginning to pick myself up already...i'm not going to think of you so frequently...was so bored that me and angie were emailing each other for fun...haha..counting down another 14 days before i get my pay check..i really wan a psp...but is freaking expensive is about 1/3 of my pay...ahh!!!...I've been offered a club momo membership...well the difference between momo and mos membership is that momo is only valid for a year whereas mos have no expiry date...hmm...though i'm sick...while eating steamboat ytd...i was drinking hard liquor...haha...i'm drinking alcohol as though it was plain water...i'm bored which means i'm crapping...is only the 2nd day of the week...means there's 3 more days...I wan go out and play and play and play even more..

2007-04-09T00:23:00.000-07:00

Here i am in the office typing this post out...I'm fighting against a cold...it's been a while since i fall sick...this flu was past by my brother...I've used in total 1 box and 3 packets of tissue from 9am to 3pm...Ahh...i hate having a flu...my mind is so heavy due to the flu...Everybody ask me to go get MC but they didnt realise that i have no pay leave...every day leave is individually deduct..I'm targetting that i will work for the full month for the month of April...counting down 15 days...today i'm going to have steamboat...my dad is preparing the food as he is on leave...reason for taking leave? because he has sold away the old car in await for the new car...My family new car will be Nissan Cefiro...I've been on hold regarding learning to drive...i will start officially next week...i promise...I'll arrange class everyday after work..Die...i'm running a fever as well as a flu...which means i will not recover very fast...
Wad a monday blues...

2007-04-08T18:30:00.000-07:00

This week was not a good week for me...firstly i'm down with a bad flu and my body is aching everywhere...went to MOS on thursday as there was free entry for all due to good friday...met yf and yg first at je MRT...before proceeding there..there was a long long queue...basically singaporean are always up for freebies...wanted to go MOMO instead but there wasnt much offers so MOS was selected due to budget reason..however the mood wasnt there and the music wasnt as nice...plus yj was being emo and i was very tired...everyone was very sian..we took a cab home sending yj, yg, me than yf...when i reach home...i realise that i've lost my gate key..i cant be bothered to call everyone and ask..so i called my bro to open the door for me BUT he was out cycling...so i've no choice but to sit outside and wait for his return...when i manage to enter the hse...i was super dead beat...wanted to jus sleep and sleep and sleep...but my dad was nagging and nagging and nagging..so there was a shouting argument before we decide to leave each other alone...anyway i've been secretly drinking my dad's liquor everyday...since he has so many bottles no harm for me to finish up one...

Anyway...since no one will read the blog...i will jus write down my tots...i think i'm beginning to like you unknowingly...i dunno why but i'm always waiting for your msg and waiting for ur calls...when i see u with another girl...i feel uneasy...you wan me to wait for you...but u are not making an effort to work things out...i was thinking about this the yesterday...since you are not making an effort why do i make myself so miserable waiting for you? i'm going to start forgetting you as someone that i once like...i'm officially emotionally and physically unattached...
This few days was a emotional rollercoaster for me...but i'm going to pick myself up and be my usual self...

2007-04-04T18:22:00.000-07:00

Dilema comes one after another...received a mail from SIM[university at buffalo] that i've secured a place in the 4th intake which commenced on 4th May..the problem is i still got 2 outstanding application that i had not receive any status..Which means that if i accept SIM...i have to forgo about hoping to get in UOL or SMU..But if i reject UB and wait for UOL and SMU..if i do not get to either of one..i'm screwed...And if i leave my work earlier...how? i feel bad that i'm leaving 1/2 way through the project..i thinking that even if i leave earlier, i can come back or track at home...my main concerns is partly because of the recognition of the degree that i'm getting...i've talk to my boss and apparantly he say he's okie with me accepting that course..however i feel bad...AHHHH...i was thinking that i work like part time..and be paid per hour instead of monthly basis...I know that he is quite angry that i have to leave earlier..I'm very confused now and i have no idea what should i choose...I actually half decided to accept UB but not that i receive this kind of response from Charles...I am all totally confused already..

2007-04-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

This is my first post for my third blog...I'm being emo for this week...not to the extend that i cry myself to sleep..out of the blue i begin to feel that my life is empty..especially due to recent events i realise that bottoming everything is really sucky..i need to release..currently i'm turning to alcohol..i realise that i've been single for a long time and is kind of getting lonely..I decide that is time to change my life around.. Firstly i dyed my hair...change from black to brown[lighter than wad i expected]..Secondly i have nothing plan yet..wait till i got an urge to do something than i'll do it...=)

Last Wed went club hop from clinic --> MOS --> zouk...yeap..had like 10 free drinks at clinic before heading to MOS and zouk to dance our liquor off..haha...it was really havoc..i havent had such havocness in a VERY long time...Get to know yijing's fren [kexin and tricia]...they are so nice to hang out with..thought that i couldn't mix with them but hell they prove me wrong..we were taking photos, dancing and drinking basically having loads and loads of FUN!!!!...
Below are the pics we took at the different clubs.

This week is a short week..working only 4 days thanks to a holiday call Good Friday...im typing this post in my office..after 2 months of staring into space, i finally got my internet access. I'm so bored in my office..I'm like doing the same thing every week...i hate it...but i still have to do it cus i need the $$$$$...I can't wait for my DVDs to arrive singapore...sorry yf...i noe i owe u and your fren the dvds for a super long long time...anyway...i want to watch so many movies and do so many thing...i wan to watch TMNT, Meet the robinsons, The reaping, shooter..I wan to cycle in the night...i wan to go overseas...i wan to change my life...What is the meaning of a relationship with no committment? i seriously have no idea...I used to think what will happen to my life if one day i decide to jus end everything...