Thursday, April 26, 2007
here i am writing this post...this is the first time i'm suffering a hangover...is horrible...i cant really remember what happen ytd...i only noe after the drink graveyard...i'm half gone...than i dunno why i start drinking more and more...and ended up drunk...haha..yf is drunk too..i'm not the only one...than i know we took a cab back...the drop me off first..i only remember staggering home...trying to open the gate...wash my face and sleep...zZz...i cant even remember that i sms yf to wake me up at wad time until he called me and i was like wad time is it...i took a cab to work today and my stomach was feeling grudgy...when i woke up i was puking every either liquid or solid food that i eat...and i got a whole load of scolding from my dad...like wth...cant he do it tonight or smthing?i'm so tired now...at least i'm responsible enough to come to work every time after i club...i'm feeling very f**ked up my body is collasping...
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
1/2 hour more before is lunch break..woohoo!!!...was 10 mins late for work today...reason? couldn't find anything to wear...sad rite? i change 3 outfits in total before settling for a tunic top...thought of taking taxi but i have been taking taxi for consecutive 2 days...so decided to jus take the MRT...manage to board the train at 8.30am which means i got 1/2 hour to travel from jurong east to raffles place...i did not have my earphone with me so i jus stood there staring at my hp...than i heard music...at first i thought someone's phone has rang so i ignore it..but the music was LOUD and LONG...which is so irritating and the point is the songs played are oldies and are not nice...it was so irritating...so i called angie and was saying loudly that some ppl jus dunno about the invention of earphone and he didn't realise it was so annoying...i think that guy heard wad i said and automatically off his hp...haha...i dun care if u think i'm mean but seriously it is very annoying...i was considering to tell him off face to face...
Counting down 3 days to payday!!!!...yeahx!!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
hmm...last week was kind of fun week..had 2 consecutive party during the weekends...one was the TEC group dinner...and next is clubbing [as usual]....well i'll go into details one by one...
First the TEC group dinner...i've been working with SGX for about 3 months and still counting...i'm working under the TEC dept also known as TECnolegy dept...there was this appreciation dinner for the entire dept...which means about close to 100 ppl...i was only informed on friday itself...eventhough it was abit rush but i went in the end...at first i felt real akward there...i went with my colleague susan sia...took a bus and walk with a group of ppl whom i dont know...yahx..Under TEC there are 3 diff mini-department [Planning and Governance, Services Management and Solution Delivery]...i belong to the dept Services Management lead by Mr Low...but my boss is Charles...so complicated right? anyway back to the dinner...i was sitting opposite susan helen[yeah another susan] and things was abit akward for me...cus i have no idea who are the other 80 ppl who are there...so i sat there quietly sipping my glass of white wine...than they started giving out the appreciation cert..i unfortunately did not have one...since i join not long...but is okie...i understand...anyway the dinner is held at magma the german bistro...is found by my colleague marcus...the food are not bad there and they provide free flow of wine and beer...so do find out more...anyway after a speech by all the leaders of individual dept as well as the head of TEC..is makan time....i waited for a while before i join the queue as it was more of a buffet style...so it was separated into 2 different section..the hot and the cold...the hot section is where the pasta and mash potatoes and stuffs are..the cold section are where the smoked salmon, hams and salads are...i prefer the cold section...haha...i'm amazed with their boiled salmon...they practically skined the salmon so nicely that the shape of the fish is not damaged and you can scrape the meat off with a spoon so easily...and not forgetting is delicious too..yum!...the more i recap the hungrier i get...anyway i was sitting there eating my food quietly as i knoe very little ppl and dunno who to talk too...than marcus and ramesh came and pass me a glass of wine...and came talking to me...haha...they are so nice...but i think they are wanted so they left after a while...i was bored so i went to look for them and crap...saw them and crap abit and drink more glasses of wine...talk with alvin and han kiat too...than when the MCs request for the youngest staff available...i seek shelther as i was the youngest there...haha...as well as marcus and dennis...so we went outside till the volunteers are found...haha..come on you are asking me to sing some songs that i'm not even familar infront of so many strangers? no way...i do not have the gut...haha...so is more drinking and crapping...than the time when everybody are waiting for...the lucky draw...they are very nice cus they prepared like enough gifts so that no one go home empty handed...i got a $50 taka vouchur...haha...i dunno why but seems like everyone is dying to get the grand prize...the ipod shuffle..haha...i was teling myself if i get it i'll sell it to them and earn money...haha...time pass and i realise i drank about 12 glasses of wines...and yeah i was feeling tipsy..but not to the extend that i dunno wad i'm doing...i was talking to yijing while trying to get a cab...and i told her that wad happen last last week...and apparantly she claims that i was talking alot of rubbish...i went home and i fell asleep after bathing...
hmm...some pics of the restaurant...
anyway here are some pics...
Is the first day of the week and i'm feeling so restless...i guess this is call the monday blues...i'm so sleepy...and is not even 1/2 of the day yet...anyway my N73 has been declared dead...boohoo...cant even on the phone...those peeps thinking of getting a N73...please seriously consider...cus is a phone than is slow and hangs alot...haix...after work got to send my phone to hospital...sad...i'm not sad about the phone but the contacts and the msg that are store in the phone...now i have to use one of the establish '3G' phone...haix...
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Is wednesday of the week and we still havent talk to each other...I mean as a fren is polite to reply my msges and stuff...and even if you are pissed with me i would rather u let me know instead of avoiding me..I already apologise to you...what more u wan me to do?...I mean i really dont wan to spoil this frenship but i really dunno wad to do already...
i realise that to all my frens i'm always the one being bothered about how they feel...they don't even care if i feel pissed or wad...i kind of sick of who i am...i realise i got very limited frens to talk to...when i was feeling so troubled i tried finding M , YJ but they are all not available...last time i can count on YF to talk to as a fren...but now we seems to be so distance that i don't even dare to look for him to talk to...If things really turn out really bad i will feel sad that i lost a fren who knows me well...Maybe when it comes to frenship i tend to get very troubled and anxious when i feel that i have angered my frens...i tend to worry alot which i know is not a good thing...but i cant help as frens are 1 of the impt group of ppl in my life...
Enuff of sad stuffs..the good thing is i talk to my dad regarding me wanting to buy a psp...i thought his reply will be a definate NO...but surprising he told me to check out the price let him know and if is still cheaper than the shop we bought our PS2 than he will go down with me to buy and help me bargain...well i'm definately going to buy a psp this month...
Eventhough this is a happy issue i still feeling troubled regarding frens issues...haiz...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
here i am in the office...again very bored..regarding the issue i state in ytd's posting...i'm still feeling f**ked up about it...i have not heard of A since...I'm very scared that our friendship will turn all bad...the last round that i think yijing was pissed off with me...i was feeling bad and guilty the whole week...A's ranking in my friends is as impt as yijing...How i wished time could turn back and things will be better...i dunno what to do now...should i call A and talk to A or shld i jus pretend nothing happen and wait for A to talk to me...i hate the feeling of being guilty...it kind of sux..i think the feeling will only go off when A and me starts talking to each other...oh man...my eyes are so tired due to not lack of sleep but interval of waking up from a long sleep...I wan to tell yijing about it but i can't cus she knows A and it will be even more akward if she go confront A...ARH!!!!...i dunno what to do...
I feel so awful now...I truely regret my actions...ytd i went to club with A and other frens...were the only ger among them...but i know all of them in school so things were not so akward...dance and drink alot...apparantly me and A are close frens compared to the others...rafter a while of dancing we decide to have a drink...before that A has already drank quite a bit...so after our flamin lamborgini...A was abit tipsy...at the dance floor he was already knocking onto other ppl and i have to apologise to them...i was okie with apologising on A's behalf...so to prevent him from knocking onto others...i tried hold A back whenever he was losing his balance..everytime i hold him back i got pushed by A...I tried letting A know that he has been knocking into ppl but instead i got a scolding by A...i admit i was quite pissed so i change place with 1 of the other frens...than i think the other could not handle too so i changed back...at one point A was about to collaspe so i held on to him..okie..i was abit holding him...i didnt tell anyone but the next thing i know is that he turn and :x on my cheeks...i was stunned..before i can regain my stunness...he pushed me away again..i was feelin very contradicting from the moment we left the club to the nearest MAC...i was pissed at the fact that A keep pushing and scolding me while i'm trying to help him but i can't be angry with A cus i know he is drunk and is not his fault...but i guess anger got the better of me...after a while when A was more sober...he was talking to me but i choose not to reply cus i need time to getover the anger...so i told A straight that i was pissed with him...he was like what did he do...i told him that while helping him, i got pushed and scolded by him..i know he felt bad...so i was like saying...'if i wan to be a bi*ch, i can say smthing till he loses face'...A was like saying 'jus be a bi*ch and say...i wan to know'...so i said wad i saw and his frens were making fun of him...by then i was feeling not that pissed anymore...cus after all we are good frens and i know is not his fault...i was feeling abit tired so i was trying to sleep...A keep using the bottle to disturb me..so i was like trying to hit him...A turn his face to indicate that if i dare i could slap him...i dunno wad came abt but i hit him on his cheek...and was quite a loud one...he didnt say much after that and continued to joke around...but after a while he went back to sleep ...i was thinking about the slap and i feel bad...as in real bad...so i was feelin guilty...i was scolding myself why i did that...i became feeling akward talking to him...so i kept quiet for a while...than i realise that he was also beginning to avoid me...i mean if i was the only one who felt it...maybe i was sensitive...but even his frens were also thinking why suddenly me and him became so distance...we took a mrt from clarke quay...i was walking abit fast cus my legs were starting to ache...and i wan to reach the platform a.s.a.p...went into the train saw a seat and sat there...i never realise that there was not enough seats for all of us...so they say proceed further in...but i was too tired to shift so i told them is okie...they can go ahead...afterall is only 2 stops...by then A was avoiding me very obvious...partly i dare not make the first move...so we were practically not talking...we reached JE for breakfast...wasn't having much appetite so didn't finish up the bread i ordered...i kept quite silent the whole time..partly tired and partly akward...as in not akward with the group but akward with A...i was thinking of apologising to him regarding the slap but i dare not do it...and i dun wan this to affect my friendship with him...cus he is one of my good frens...this is the first time that i hit a fren...i'm feeling all so guilty and bad....i went to bed straight after a bath when i reached home..after i wake up i sent him an apology sms...and not heard from him since...i wan to think that is because he is slping so there is no reply...but whether is that case i seriously dunno...
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
50 memorable things for Singaporean teenagers. Sit, enjoy and think back about the past...
1. You grew up watching He-man, Transformers, Silver hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles and Smurfs too.
2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug. The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.
3. You know what's Bin(1) Fen(1) Ba (1) San(1)is all about.
4. You know what SBC stands for.
5. You were there when the first chinese serial, the Awakening was shown on TV.
6. Internet? What the hell is that? So you thought a decade or more ago.
7. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.
8. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole on the ticket.
9. Your favourite actor and actress is Huang Wenyong and Xiangyun. Next is Lee Nanxing and Zoe Tay and the Aiyoyo woman.
10. You've probably read Young Generation magazine. You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.
11. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.
12. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.
13. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.
14. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.
15. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka(20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang(50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.
16. You watched TV2(also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.
17. All that you know about Cantonese is from the Hong Kong serials you watched on TV2.
18. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.
19. Civics and Moral Education was "Hao3 Gong1 Min2".
20. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.
21. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THEMOSTEXTREME WAS 'super white'... you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.
22. Catching was the IN thing and twist was the magic word.
23. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.
24. CDIS was your best friend.
25. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellisedcharacters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.
26. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.
27. Boys loved to play soccer with small tennis balls in the basketball court.
28. Hopskotch, five stones,chateh and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...
29. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives.
30. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks.
Even Mr Willy.
31. You did stupid exercises like seal crawl and frog jumps.
32. Every children's day and national day you either get pins or pens with'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with Happy National Day 1994'.33. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.
34. Chinese teachers were always old, boring and damn fiercelooking.
35. Your form teacher taught you maths, science and english.
36. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.
37. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained,and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.
38. Famous Chinese singers were only Jacky Cheung, Andy Lau, Aaron Kwok and Leon Lai.
39. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.
40. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.
41. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.
42. During class gatherings, parents always tag along in case someone gets lost at Orchard Road.
43. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.
44. Handkerchiefs were a must for both genders.
45. Collecting notebooks and all kinds of stationery was a popular thing.
46. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "ForgetMeNot", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".
47. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"
48. There were at least 40 people in one class.
49. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.
50. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.
really bring back alot of past memories...
was super late for work today...last round that i saw my alarm was 7.30...so i tot that i could sleep abit longer after all the testing of the discs...yawn*...so by the time my dad woke me up..it was 8.30am!!!!...which means in order not to be late i have to get ready and reach SGX in 1/2 hours time...by the time i dressed up and get ready it was 8.40am already...i took a cab to work...like obviously...but AYE was having slow traffic....which is bad...so by the time i reach my office..is already 9.10am...i'm 10 mins late...okie..not that bad...by the taxi cost me $17...so expensive with all the ERP and the peak hour charges...did nothing much but read some jokes online and browse website...came accross an article regarding 50 memorable things for singaporean teenagers...brings back alot of memories..life back then was so much more naive and simple not like now we are surrounded by technology..everything became so technical...well...i'll post the article in the next post...Apparantly there is an ever going debate regarding the pay rise of our minister...i was never following the political issues...but when my colleagues were discussing about this matter...did i realise that our ministers are the highest paid in the world...even BUSH has a lower pay than them...wOahx...we have a super gold class government...But i have to say that the government did do a good job during crisis like SARS and Birdflu...now i guess the goal of every human being in the world is to be a minister in singapore...because of a super duper good pay...imagine with a year pay...you can retire and rest your remaining years...for other jobs in private sectors...we have to work a LOng LOng way...well..enuff of crapping got to go back to work...after lunch got to meet up with HP's Project manager to discuss some issues for the project...counting down 1/2 hour to LUNCH break...wahaha...
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm so bored now...i'm practically stoning and stoning and stoning even more...office is like a place where i jus sit and rot and wait to get pay...surprisingly my flu have gotten better despite not eating any medication...had mixed vegetable rice for lunch today...the food doesn't taste nice...but i dun care...and it cost $4....so expensive...i'm beginning to pick myself up already...i'm not going to think of you so frequently...was so bored that me and angie were emailing each other for fun...haha..counting down another 14 days before i get my pay check..i really wan a psp...but is freaking expensive is about 1/3 of my pay...ahh!!!...I've been offered a club momo membership...well the difference between momo and mos membership is that momo is only valid for a year whereas mos have no expiry date...hmm...though i'm sick...while eating steamboat ytd...i was drinking hard liquor...haha...i'm drinking alcohol as though it was plain water...i'm bored which means i'm crapping...is only the 2nd day of the week...means there's 3 more days...I wan go out and play and play and play even more..
Monday, April 09, 2007
Here i am in the office typing this post out...I'm fighting against a cold...it's been a while since i fall sick...this flu was past by my brother...I've used in total 1 box and 3 packets of tissue from 9am to 3pm...Ahh...i hate having a flu...my mind is so heavy due to the flu...Everybody ask me to go get MC but they didnt realise that i have no pay leave...every day leave is individually deduct..I'm targetting that i will work for the full month for the month of April...counting down 15 days...today i'm going to have steamboat...my dad is preparing the food as he is on leave...reason for taking leave? because he has sold away the old car in await for the new car...My family new car will be Nissan Cefiro...I've been on hold regarding learning to drive...i will start officially next week...i promise...I'll arrange class everyday after work..Die...i'm running a fever as well as a flu...which means i will not recover very fast...
Wad a monday blues...
Sunday, April 08, 2007
This week was not a good week for me...firstly i'm down with a bad flu and my body is aching everywhere...went to MOS on thursday as there was free entry for all due to good friday...met yf and yg first at je MRT...before proceeding there..there was a long long queue...basically singaporean are always up for freebies...wanted to go MOMO instead but there wasnt much offers so MOS was selected due to budget reason..however the mood wasnt there and the music wasnt as nice...plus yj was being emo and i was very tired...everyone was very sian..we took a cab home sending yj, yg, me than yf...when i reach home...i realise that i've lost my gate key..i cant be bothered to call everyone and ask..so i called my bro to open the door for me BUT he was out cycling...so i've no choice but to sit outside and wait for his return...when i manage to enter the hse...i was super dead beat...wanted to jus sleep and sleep and sleep...but my dad was nagging and nagging and nagging..so there was a shouting argument before we decide to leave each other alone...anyway i've been secretly drinking my dad's liquor everyday...since he has so many bottles no harm for me to finish up one...
Anyway...since no one will read the blog...i will jus write down my tots...i think i'm beginning to like you unknowingly...i dunno why but i'm always waiting for your msg and waiting for ur calls...when i see u with another girl...i feel uneasy...you wan me to wait for you...but u are not making an effort to work things out...i was thinking about this the yesterday...since you are not making an effort why do i make myself so miserable waiting for you? i'm going to start forgetting you as someone that i once like...i'm officially emotionally and physically unattached...
This few days was a emotional rollercoaster for me...but i'm going to pick myself up and be my usual self...
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Dilema comes one after another...received a mail from SIM[university at buffalo] that i've secured a place in the 4th intake which commenced on 4th May..the problem is i still got 2 outstanding application that i had not receive any status..Which means that if i accept SIM...i have to forgo about hoping to get in UOL or SMU..But if i reject UB and wait for UOL and SMU..if i do not get to either of one..i'm screwed...And if i leave my work earlier...how? i feel bad that i'm leaving 1/2 way through the project..i thinking that even if i leave earlier, i can come back or track at home...my main concerns is partly because of the recognition of the degree that i'm getting...i've talk to my boss and apparantly he say he's okie with me accepting that course..however i feel bad...AHHHH...i was thinking that i work like part time..and be paid per hour instead of monthly basis...I know that he is quite angry that i have to leave earlier..I'm very confused now and i have no idea what should i choose...I actually half decided to accept UB but not that i receive this kind of response from Charles...I am all totally confused already..
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
This is my first post for my third blog...I'm being emo for this week...not to the extend that i cry myself to sleep..out of the blue i begin to feel that my life is empty..especially due to recent events i realise that bottoming everything is really sucky..i need to release..currently i'm turning to alcohol..i realise that i've been single for a long time and is kind of getting lonely..I decide that is time to change my life around.. Firstly i dyed my hair...change from black to brown[lighter than wad i expected]..Secondly i have nothing plan yet..wait till i got an urge to do something than i'll do it...=)
Last Wed went club hop from clinic --> MOS --> zouk...yeap..had like 10 free drinks at clinic before heading to MOS and zouk to dance our liquor off..haha...it was really havoc..i havent had such havocness in a VERY long time...Get to know yijing's fren [kexin and tricia]...they are so nice to hang out with..thought that i couldn't mix with them but hell they prove me wrong..we were taking photos, dancing and drinking basically having loads and loads of FUN!!!!...
Below are the pics we took at the different clubs.
This week is a short week..working only 4 days thanks to a holiday call Good Friday...im typing this post in my office..after 2 months of staring into space, i finally got my internet access. I'm so bored in my office..I'm like doing the same thing every week...i hate it...but i still have to do it cus i need the $$$$$...I can't wait for my DVDs to arrive singapore...sorry yf...i noe i owe u and your fren the dvds for a super long long time...anyway...i want to watch so many movies and do so many thing...i wan to watch TMNT, Meet the robinsons, The reaping, shooter..I wan to cycle in the night...i wan to go overseas...i wan to change my life...What is the meaning of a relationship with no committment? i seriously have no idea...I used to think what will happen to my life if one day i decide to jus end everything...