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I'm bored...very very very bored...

• I suddenly like to listen to sentimental songs..
• i think MLTR is a damn good group..
• Love their songs
• Ate bread for breakfast and lunch...
• Getting addicted to tea...
• I'm busy downloading song this morning
• downloading japanese disney theme
• and popeye , animaniacs and pinky and the brain theme
• those are really memorable cartoons..
• Mediacorp should consider have all these classic cartoon put under repeats...
• I'm gonna sell my old camera later after work..
• and get a brand new panasonic camera soon..
• Omg the thinking of it makes me happy...
• I'm so sleepy and hungry...
• I got my pay today!!!...
• haha...means more more $$$$$$
• Angie jus sms say she's shopping
• And i'm so tempted to join her...
• haix...cannot my boss is in meeting
• my desk is very messy
• and i cant be bothered :p
• i still got 3h before 6pm
• i wan go clubbing..
• i collected my graduation gown..
• it looks weird but still got to wear
• next week most staff of SGX will be going to Vietnam
• which means will be a quiet friday...
• I'm gonna watch Pirates Of The Caribbean 3 on Saturday
• and i'm sure i'll enjoy it...

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I'm bored so i'm gonna learn smthing from ms kx...haha...writing a random post...haha...kx dun be angry hor..haha...anyway here goes...

1. I'm listening to 'would you be there' by redwan ali...
2. I'm craving for dunkin doghnut...thanks to angie...
3. I'm eating Mango sago...
4. I'm missing you...
5. I still have not retrieve my IC...
6. I love my family..
7. I miss the old days...
8. I have a MOBTV account...haha
9. I'm really missing you..
10. I love working in SGX...
11. I love my grandma...
12. I'm reminising the past..
13. Wad would life be if i never met u?
14. I dun dare to think..
15. I miss clubbing..
16. I MISS ALL MY FRENS
17. I'm putting off my driving...
18. I 'think' i'll start when i start school..
19. my hands are freezing..
20. I hope my parents will be proud of me..
21. I'm going to meet you for dinner later and i'm looking forward...=)
22. Thursday is a public holiday...wahaha...means wake up late...
23. Writing Minutes for meeting is a chore =(
24. Dont ask me if i'm still in love with u...
25. Cause i dont know....
26. and i dun wanna think about it...
27. I still cant belive how ppl can use their hp till a bill of 800SGD
28. I'm proud to be part of SGX/TEC/SM/SD
29. Charles Ling is a good boss and people in SM are SUPER nice...
30. I'm craving for chocolate and dessert...
31. I'm thinking of straightening my hair...hmm..shld i?
32. I'm thinking of u...
33. I'm going drinking with my colleagues on wednesday...
34. 1 of my colleague is a founder of an orphanage in India and i'm proud of him...
35. 1 more minute to 6 ; which means knocking off..
36. boo...tml got breakfast meeting means waking up early..
37. my feet hurts...thanks to a new pair of shoes...
38. is 6.00pm ; I'm meeting you =)

BYE =)

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well...last week was quite a nice weekend...went for dinner at amara hotel with my family..haha...my treat...once in a while treat them to something nice...hahahaha...i'm such a nice daughter...haha...anyway on friday the entire SGX was having a fire drill exercise...haha...everybody was coming to my floor as is lower and need not climb so may flights of stairs down...anyway we were speculating that the fire drill will be ard 3+ so everybody wasn't working but jus hanging around...then suddenly someone shouted tornado!!!!...haha...everybody went to see and take photo...haha...it was an experience seeing something so rare with my own eyes instead of seeing thru news...haha...took video and pictures...will upload soon as long as i got the time to do it...after that the fire alarm RANG!!!...haha...everybody was taking their own sweet time to evacuate...so much for a realistic fire exercise...haha..walked all the way to prince edward park...took attendence and chit chat abit before heading back to the office...visit my aunt at DBS...i pity her cause she is always so busy regardless during lunch time or rather ANY time...friday was also family day for SGX and everybody is allowed to knock off at 5pm...good rite? they encourage every staff to spend time with their family...and each department has a norminee for best staff...and the winner from SM is...*drumroll.....SUSAN HELEN...haha...she was given $150 dining voucher with curtosy of SGX...haha...so nice right...weekend was kind of boring...jus watch princess hours over again and eat and sleep...haha...omg i feel fat...so much for losing 10 kg and gaining back bit by bit...haha...anyway got to start running...anyway my big expenditure for this month will be a camera...haha...every month's pay i'm spending a portion on a new device...first was PSP than now camera...hmm..wad's next? anyway i'm pending between Panasonic Lumix FX07 and FX30...can anybody tell me which is a better camera and where can i get at a cheaper rate...

FX30

FX07?

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is quite some time since i last blog...was so pissed yesterday...actually thought of having a nice meal with my family as it so long since i last treat them a meal...from high tea we change to dinner buffet at amara hotel...on tuesday my youngest bro was making a big fuss about going keep complaining that he dun wan go...that already turn me off...i was quite pissed off cus is like so difficult for the whole family to go for 1 decent meal..and wats more i'm paying not them...than the day itself i already dun have the drive to enjoy but still reserve the table at amara hotel but ard 6pm my dad call me that my youngest brother is having a fever..i was like so?! cancel lahx.!!! the prob is i already expect something like this to happen..which is wad turn me off...i cant be bothered already i'll jus work and sleep and back to skool in early august..

I'm kind of bored in office today so i decided to write a review about the movie i watched during the weekend...hee...here goes...

Born into Brothels.
This is a documentory movie and it is featured in the red light district of Culcutta (India)...The director/photographer Zana Briski lived in one of the brothels and befriended the children of the women...She taught them photography and get to know the life that they are going through. She realise that most of them wanted education as well as a different life..for the girls their mothers /auties will force them into prostitution and some of them were so timid that they do not know how to say no...these children are black listed in the country such that getting them a passport or even getting a place in school is difficult..Zana taught them photography and manage to get them a place in school...she went through numerous problems and fustration over the disagreement of their parents..but manage to get most of them into a school...as for how many of them really carve out a future..that is for you to find out...Go catch the movie...is available only at GV Vivo...

Some pics from the movie...

I dunno why but recently i'm very restless...cant seem to put my mind to do something...anyway aside from that...i'm beginning to like my colleagues from my dept...not that i dun like them previously...but previously i was feeling akward with everybody not really opening up to them...and everything seems so weird..when they go for teabreak last time..i'll be the only one left out in the dept and is weird seeing my dept going out except me...but now they ask me along and i start opening up to them..i can even joke about stuff with them and i start to understand their work and the whole processes in SGX...my dept is known as the central pillar of SGX..and i'm really proud of it...when incidents happen u can see everyone trying to solve the problem as fast as possible and there are so many followup to do after it is beign solved...

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Havent been updating as this week was kind of a busy day for me...jus took over my colleague's job and was ask to help a colleague who is pregnant...is forms and forms and forms AND MORE forms..Initially wasn't getting used to it as previous month i'm SUPER free...suddenly i got so much work load...but now i'm getting used to it...These few days i've been a very good girl to my mum...always going home for dinner...last time i used to go home for dinner only like twice a week...yeahx...quite sad...i dunno but my fren's death taught me to really appreciate my family and treasure my life..life is really so fragile...i made a promise that i will no longer binge on alcohol anymore...hmm...i got a feeling i'll not be able to keep to that promise...haha...

anyway went to wala wala at holland V alone...yeap u didnt see wrongly...alone...ytd was kind of emo and that i needed to relax and to sort my thinking...did try to ask a few frens along but it was kind of last minute...so well expect that they cant make it...was actually thinking whether i shld continue to go ultimately it was kind of weird to go drinking in a pub alone somemore i'm a ger...but after thinking i decide to go ahead...i went kind of early about 10+ jus before the crowd starts...went to 2nd level where the live band was...i ordered a glass of whisky coke and was enjoying the live band...the music i good...is not like wad u hear in clubs...one thing...walawala has alot of caucasians...one of this guy came and talk to me guess he was curious to know why am i alone...haha...his name was David....from newzealand...he was nice to talk to...well come on he was alone and i was alone so yahx..we became frens..he was alone cus he was waiting for his other frens to arrive...he treated me to a glass of lychee martini...soon his frens arrive at first i tot i'll be left alone...but instead he ask me to join them...haha...had much fun...soon i was forgetting all the problems that i was suppose to sort out...around 2am i decide to leave as i was kind of tired...he accompany me to get a cab home before joining his frens again..haha...it was really a fun day for me yesterday..from a suppose lonely nite...i get to noe more frens...

anyway side track abit...i'm kind of disliking the way u are behaving...especially that day...i noe me and my fren are the minority in the group and we are trying to mix well with the grp..but while ur other frens are also trying to mix well with us...u jus choose to treat us like transparent...i mean why do that when we are all frens...i kind of think that i was wrong about u...last time i'm always looking forward to meeting you as i tot u are someone whom i can talk anything under the sun..and jus be myself..but recently i'm feeling that u seems like a stranger to me...is sad that good frens can result to this stage...call it woman's instinct...but i can feel that u are avoiding me...and for wad i have really no clue...i guess thats the difference btween singaporean and foreigners....i dunno why but singaporean dun believe in platonic frenship...they always have to see things with a motive...

anyway something slightly happier...my graduation is coming and i'm gonna to take leave next wednesday to replace my IC and bring my bros for lunch buffet at sakura...than maybe go shopping alone...now i'm thinking where to have dinner on father's day..haha...since my dad loves porriage(dunno how to spell) maybe i bring him to some porriage buffet...anyway my grandma is returning from Vietnam this sunday...*praying hard for the flight journey to be safe...can't wait to eat her cooking...best hakka food in the world...

Labels: emo + happy = i dunno

Life is so short and so many things happen jus within months...Someone that i know jus died on mother's day...Is so sudden as in the afternoon i jus visited him and after dinner..i was told that he has left us...My fren's accident was reported in news...in case u still not know which case is it...u can refer to this link http://www.straitstimes.com/portal/site/STI/menuitem.c2aef3d65baca16abb31f610a06310a0/?vgnextoid=6fadbe120b93a010VgnVCM1000000a35010aRCRD&vgnextfmt=vgnartid:cdc47fa260682110VgnVCM100000430a0a0aRCRD

I know him through red cross and though he was really fierce those days..he was really nice to all cadets when it comes to recreation..he was a well respected SIR afterall...after the course ended we have gatherings and without fail he will turn up...Though he is gone, we will still be the respected SIR in our heart...

i'm posting cus i'm super bored and akward now...my entire dept went for a meeting except me...than my boss say so loud that i need not attend the meeting...so malu and akward can?!...seriously i dun mind not attending the meeting...i alreeady got myself into some office politics...the point is not i look for the politics but they come look for me...if marcus was here...i'm sure he also will be called into the meeting...arhx...cant be bothered with them...i realise that this few weeks isn't a smooth ride...shit stuff are happening almost once every single day..waiting for this dark patch to pass...shoo!...

yesterday was quite turn off by everything...since i was the organiser for a gathering...i went to the restaurant to discuss some details with the boss and manage to get their function room which includes karaoke system...the staff there is very nice =)...it was kind of tedious to go and find a place so unfamiliar after work in high heels...but to me if i wan do smthing...i'll make sure i do my best =)...think i'm being more perfectionist as time goes by...i sms the details to my frens and 1 of them say dun wan go BCUS? not into jap food...i was kind of turn off cus even if u dun really like jap food cant you turn up for the sake of a gathering?is hard for me to please everybody..and if u didnt really like the most u can is let me noe earlier and than i can make arrangement...but the thing is during the weekend and u only inform me ytd...and everybody else is confirm..i really dunno wad to do..bcus of this i troubled my other fren and the least u all could do is jus coorporate...? i also dun care...i'll jus enjoy with whoever is going to turn up...
The restaurant i'll be going is Himawari Japanese Restaurant...for the ala-carte buffet...gonna blog about the food..the thought of the food makes me drool..haha...

yesterday was my colleague's last day of work...he's going back to study...he's one of those that i really talk to in the office as the some of them still seem very unapproachable...i'm actually quite envious of him to have such a good bonding with the other colleagues...is jus no matter how i try to bond...there's always a gap between me and them...this dun actually make my working life enjoyable...it actually makes me look forward to last day of work..

Oh yahx...i promise ms KX that i'll blog bout my transition from brown hair to black hair and i havent did that...haha...i'll blog tonight as all the pics are in my laptop...i'm still getting use with black hair...

random post...have been repeating this song in my ipod everyday...the song is what goes around comes around by justin timberlake...dunno why last time i dun really like this song...but this few days...i'm simply loving the song...

dunno why but today was quite busy than other days..the whole morning was meeting and meeting...haha...i sound impt but i'm not...jus sit there and capture minutes only...lunch went to mich mum's cafe have a full lunch and take away muffins for my colleagues...proceed to Amara hotel with Yun Zhen to pay the deposit for the luncheon that my company is organising...i jus treated them to the muffins...haha...well i making an effort to bond with them...haha...afterall they treat me very nice for the past 3 mths...anyway i see them eat i also hungry...haha...

well yesterday was talking to kx and i realise that i said alot of rubbish when i was drunk that day..and to kx...I STILL CANT BELIEVE I SAID THAT...OMG....well i'll avoid the topic as far as possible...haha...i'm so daring when i'm drunk...omg...haha...I'm so shock of my own words...i guess when ppl get drunk u tend to say things that you will not dare when u are sober...

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NEVER BELIEVE IN DRUNKARD WORDS...hahah

last week was a super bad week...I lost my IC, eZlink and my housekeys...on saturday i went to club cus it was tricia's b'day..as usual i only bring my purse with my IC,EzLink, Credit card and housekeys...met yf first before heading in to the club...than was kind of super akward then cus majority of tricia's fren i have no idea who they are other than wanxiang whom is also from shuqun sec...open a bottle of chivas and started drinking with yf before the rest arrive...only remember bottoms up with tricia and after a while i cant remember anything already...i only remember i started puking and tried locating yf but jus cant seem to get him, reason? i never save his number in my phone and i end up keying the wrong number...i dunno why i ended up looking for yj...i remember i was in the toilet when i gave her the call...than i only remember someone dragging me to MAC...and there is where i realise that i lost my purse..as my credit card and member's card is with yf so that was not missing...other than those, everything is missing...was resting at MAC where i got scolded from yj...i understand why she scolded me for...and till now i have no idea when and why i decide to open the 2nd bottle of chivas...i cant remember anything...yj was right to scold as i always get taken advantage of...they tried helping me to find my purse but MOS said that they have yet to find the purse...after a while kexin and yj left cus i think kexin's fren came and pick her up...than send yj to sengkang..cus the time was about 5+ so yf decide to jus sit and wait for the first train...as for me i was too tired to really move so i jus slept there...i think ard 6+, yf woke me up and we proceed to the MRT station...remember i'm peniless...so yf paid for my one trip ticket and we headed to JE...thru out i was havin very bad stomach ache...it was very unberable but i still got to bear with it...anyway reach je and we proceed home individually...i had $1.40 so it was enuff to take a bus home...went home and called my brother to open the door for me.. as i have no keys...i actually decide not to tell my parents about the lost of the key and IC but after a while of slp i realise that keys and IC are together which means telling anyone where i stay and giving free access...so i decide to come clean with my mum saying that i lost my purse...she was quite cool with it except making a few nagging...i told her i going to make a police report so she was not so angry cus at least i make an effort to do something bout it...after making a police report i went back home...then my dad knoes nothing yet...when he come back from his game my mum told him wad happen and he was furious...he woke me up and scold and scold...when he sees that i never rebut him , he thinks that i dun care about it at all so he starting hitting me...yahx so now i always wear long sleeves shirt to cover the marks...eventhough i should be angry for him beating me but i noe i cant cus is all my fault...i'm feeling so pissed with myself...and i cant do anything about everything...

some words to end it...
yj : ger...really thank you for coming down...wad u scold me is correct and i knoe is for the benefit of me..i really feel bad for making u come down so late..i wouldn't know wad my life will be without a fren like u...anway really thank you for helping me all these time...i dunno how to express my thanks for u...but again really thank you and wouldn't know wad to do without u...

yf : hey fren...really sorry for making u stay back when u are suppose to leave earlier...really sorry for troubling you another time..i dunno how to repay ur favour everytime but only saying thank you...

kx : ger...sorry that i got so drunk that day that u didnt really get to enjoy the whole time...promise not to get too drunk the next time we go...

tri : hey ger....happy birthday again...and sorry to be so drunk throughout the whole time...

yesterday was fun and tired day..went to catch spiderman3 with my brother and his fren...it was a free tix from my mum's company NUH...yahx...it was from some sponsor call chemotech...went to the cathey to have dinner before collecting the tix...there is practically nothing cheap and good to eat at the cathey...quite sad...after collecting the tix we proceed to the movie...the company was so nice they gave us each a beanie,a can of coke and a box of popcorn for us to enjoy the show...so nice...haha...anyway the show lasted bout 2.5h...and i must say is real good...i dun mind watching it twice or even trice...omg...and one thing spiderman is so damn handsome...oOhx...anyway some screenshots from the movie...took a cab home...cost bout 15 bucks...lucky jiahao[bro fren] stays near by...

is a brand new month...MAY!!!..which means i got to countdown to another month before my payday...is so sian...so many things happen during the past week...the day after i got drunk on Thursday...i quarrel bad with my parents...which means no good...yahx..so to avoid commotion...i decide to not go home early on friday...so was lingering ard till bout 10+ decided to go home...but my father lock up the latch of my front door...wanted to look for mich's help but no reply came from her...yf was also reply-less...so i jus sit by my swing idling away...thinking about everything...so it was getting late...sat at the bench downstairs as it will be weird when the neighbours sees me getting lock out of the hse...while sitting down minding my own business...a few MAD came talking to me...i ignore them and they started to get all touchy...so i got really scared but i realise i have no one to turn too...so i decided to call zhengmin(my ex)...he was very nice and he drove down to pick me up from my place to his place...i was crying on the way to his place...not bcus that my dad locks me out but realise that i have no one to turn to...zhengmin was very nice he drove me to his place and offered me to stay for the night...we started to drink alcohol again and was getting tipsy...he slept in the living room and i had his room....i only remember that he waited for me to sleep before heading to the living room...the next day when i tot i woke up really early, he was even earlier...he bought breakfast for me...i'll be cold blooded if i say i wasnt touched...i was really touched...we talked about the past before he send me back home...obviously my dad was speechless when he saw zhengmin sending me back...but to zhengmin i was feeling that i owe him a favour...cus anyway we are no longer bf and gf...so he need not do all these for me...thats why i feel debted to him...cus eversince we broke up bout 1 1/2 years ago...he still treat me very nice...and at times i didnt treat him very well...i dunno why but he will always be there when i need help...

things were normal on sat...bought my psp...yeahx finally...used my own hard earned pay to get it...is like half of my pay...but i think is worthwhile..zhengmin offered to pay for me but i refused cus i already debted to him mentally...i dun wan to owe him financially too...and beside is nice paying your own...so yahx..things didnt go that bad for the weekend until....yesterday...my youngest bro was ramaging through my room ytd and found some dvd and decided to play it...those dvds are not porn but are not suitable for kids below 18...as some sexual scenes was involve...so obviously as a young boy he went to tell my mum which ends up to my dad...he was furious when he found out that this type of disc is available in his hse...so he was making a big fuss over it...and eventhough it was bought by my brother...he was in camp so he wasnt involve in the whole commotion...lucky him for me to take up the rap...i have to bluff that those disc are borrowed from a fren...he say that if i dun return the fren by this week, he's gonna throw all away...i was thinking of passing to yj but apparantly she had some concerns that her parents will find out and create a big fuss...afterall her family comprises mainly gers...i dun blame her..so i tot of yf cus afterall i told him about this before...but he was saying that i shld get someone closer to home...so okie...i tried getting someone closer to home...but she cant be contacted...but nevermind i told him that i will figure out a way...which leads to zhengmin again...i tot of him as he has his own apartment and i think is normal for disc like these to appear at a guys place..so again i owe him 1 again...when i ask him if it was convenient he was joking that he would need some entertainment for himself too since he is always alone at home...i told him that he treating me so nice make me guilty and that i feel bad that i'm owe him alot...he told me that i could repay by spending 1 full day with him...well...i havent make a decision if i gonna agree to spend the day with him...anyway i'll jus wait and see how things go...

i'm gonna watch spiderman 3 tml...with my bro and fren...hope it wont be a dissapointment...=)